Making Memories.

Vent

2011-08-31T07:07:00.000-07:00

WHO do you think you are

Running round leaving scars

You know, I was doing absolutely fine without you

I was dealing with the pain of losing you fairly well

I learnt to live life outside of our little globe

Out of that little bubble we live in

You know, the bubble where there was only us

Just you and me

Gazing into each others eyes

I was seeing other people

I was living a different lifestyle

A lifestyle that I myself was not familiar with

But awkwardly enjoyed

I was content with life for the first time since we broke up

But no.

Everything I did.

Everythingggg led me back to you

The people I was seeing - "he doesnt know me as well as you do"

"he doesnt play as well as you do"

"he doesnt dress as well as you do"

"he doesnt get me like you do"

sigh.

WHY ISS THAT?

People say I'm stupid for letting you back in my life after the pain you've put me through

They know.

They alll know I was vulnerable

They all knew how messed up i was

But still i let you back in.

After 2 years of multiple flings, hook-ups and stuff, I realized

That i'm still not over you

WHY IS THAT

Why is it that i give in to you so easily

Why is it that i can never resist you everytime you come knocking on that door?

I'm freakin in love with you thats why

And I'm angry

I'm angry at myself for being this stupid

For indulging in smth that will soon lead me to a series of hurt and pain

Especially after I leave

Cause I know you too well.

7 years i've known you

And you me

We just complete one another

Remember how we always seem to say the same things at the same time

Or how we have exactly the same taste in music

How I would just sit in your car, sit back and relax

Cause its my songs playing on the radio

Or how i could just fall asleep in your arms

Because your scent makes me week in my knees

How

How can i EVER give this up?

Youre my best friend

And thats the best part

But the thought of losing you again kills

Its hurting me deep to my bones

Dysfunctionality.

2011-08-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hey you,

I wonder how long it'll take you to realize that I've posted something here. If youre really stalking me that much that it won't take too long :) but hello. Yes this one goes out to you, love.

"...because you’re the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning and the only one I want to kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw those hands, I couldn’t imagine not being able to hold them. And the first time I kissed those lips, I couldn't imagine it being with anyone else."

"So tell me, how did things work out so well with your wife?

Simple dude, I married my best friend."

"..cause there's just no one who gets me like you do. you are my only one"

"I do this from time to time when I like to think of you and me."

"cause at the end of the day, it all comes down to you and me. just you and me. and no, replying me an hour late isn't gonna help anything."

"well you always know how to make me feel better when i'm angry or upset anyway. a gift, and a curse"

"well thats it for today folks! tune in next time"

"nyom nyom"

"i won't go another day without you"

"and it goes like this!"

charlieee

2011-08-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

hi.

i miss youu :(

Guess Who's Back. =)

2009-09-04T04:52:00.001-07:00

helllo ALL! =D

i'm super duper buper zuperly sorry for abandoning this blog for 3 months =X and i'm sorry, blog, for being a super duper bad owner. i promise i'll TRY to update you more often. and i'm sorry readers. (if i still have any) but here's an update.

Okay, so since June, loadsa stuff has changed. We moved into a new house and it automatically transformed into a home over night. i dont know, this place just feels like homee. =) And we got a golden retriever puppy. She is the love of my life. Happy is her namee. Cause she makes us happy cause she's alwayssss happy. Jumping around and all. She got sick and almost died, but she's alll better now. We love her to bits <3 and of course, Berwick will always be my knight in shining armour :)

It is now September and will be having my 2nd mock NEXT WEEK. So wish me luck! I should go study. Soon. I've got loads to update! I am currently tryna finish a whole form 5 textbook in like 3 days which is HUMANLY impossible. but at least i can say i tried. =D its frustrating k. i have to read over and over again JUST to udnerstand. den read over and over again JUST to memorize. then the next day i forget, so i'll read over and over again.. and it goes on and on and on. hahaha sejarah is a major pain in my royal ass.

I was suppose to go for a Drill Camp in KL last August holidays but the camp got postponed due to H1N1. eh this thing getting pretty serious k. and i'm not feeling too well =(

What else? I'm addicted to facebook. there, i said it =X

Ahhh life's going on pretty well right now. despite the studying and all. things are actually slowly getting better. i love it! and i lost weight. well at least i THINK i did. oh that makes it oh so much more worrying. ahaha. daddy's like blocking all my social activities. >.< and i cant wait to get my driving license! rachel drove us to lunch todayyy. Not bad lah, but she does super sharp turnings and she's lame at parking. i dare to say this cause i know its true..and i know she wont be reading this so like YEAH. ahaha.

i'm sorry for a pictureless post. for pics please got to
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=723606694&ref=profile

anyth new in my life. you know it'll be on facebook ;)

nostalgic

2009-06-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

Tonight's gonna be the last night that i'm staying in this house.
feeling a tad bit nostalgic.

che2 dedek2, say bye2 to this place! lets all hold hands and sing kumbayahhh

hey, i grew up here okayy. through good and bad times. recessional and non-recessional period, i've been happily lving here. lol

*wipes tears*

goodbye to the old, hellow to the new.

Go Figure!

2009-06-01T22:31:00.000-07:00

Guess who's back? or who was back? =)

Lets play guess the butt.

Haha Sarah was back in Kuching!

But she left again for mirey early this morninggg.. =( haha had fun spending the day with her. its been like what, 5 years since i last saw her? ahh good times good times. she's still the samee.. she never changes. She still has her goofy smile and her horny looks. Pretty as ever .=)

Spent gawai with her. Got drunk with her.. i heart sarah =)

Ohh we went shopping after visiting. with sha as welll.. we went to tHe spring. she hates shopping btw. so fun to drag her arnd. haha

PADINI HAD A HUGE SALLEE! apa lagi? shop till i drop lah. spent so long lining up to pay for my stuufffsss. heh. spring was damn full okay! so many peopllleeee.. and i accidentally masuk tandas laki but i wont elaborate on that. by far the most embarassing time of my life lol

ah BENGS laughed at me okay =(

okay thats all. I GOT MY GOSSIP GIRL TO WATCH! YES! =DDD

all i really need is you.. =(

Friday The 29th

2009-05-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

this is gonna be yet another pictureless blogpost due to the cable still being at the new house =.=

School went bt quickly todayy. teacher's werent teaching. whats the point of coming to school anywayyyy. hear pn ding marah us only. and miss ko took my classmate's slippar away - letting them walk barefooted - just cause they pakei slippar to sch. APAKAH. i heart my classmates la. i'll really miss them when my sch years end.. the Hang's family, consisting of Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Neon?, Hang Letih. lol! they crack me up everydayyy. though their big bullies, love them to bits.

neways, i did NOT go to PBK today. so this is by far one of the happiest day of me life =) instead i was home all day, trying to get my GOSSIP GIRL to start streaming. bloody thing wont work! sigh, so i ended up recording emo songs. ahaha. was mucho fun.

then i went for badminton. freakin tiring. played with yoalanda's bro todayy. DAMN PRO MAN. so lap bin one play with himm... =/ he's only 14! jeff also bo bin laaa.. Malaysia player okay! Then i went home, tired. STARTED CLEARING MY CUPBOARD jam packed with papers, books, etc etc so many many BARANG! freaking headachy okay! but i found soooo many funny stuff. stuff i wrote, stuff i made, test papers. hahaha. a trip down memory lane

My room is currently 45% empty.
The easy part's over.

And, i found a CD.
CD Name : Ruby's Party Mix
(yes you may start laughing now)
i think this dated like 6 years back
and the songs are....

1. Me against the music - Brit and Madonna
2. Perfect - Simple Plan!
3. I will Survive -NANA!! lollll
4. Losing Grip - Avril
5. Complicated - Avril
6. Numb - Linkin Park LOL!
7. I'm with you - avril
8. Mobile - Avril
9. Somewhere I belong - Linkin Park!
10. Nobody's Fool - Avril
11. Things I'll Never Say - Avril
12. So Yesterday - HILARY DUFF! lol
13. Ultimate - Lindsay Lohan
14. I'm just a kid - Simple Plan

wait for it...funny shit coming up!

15. Desa Tercinta - NANA!
16. Boys and Girls - Good Charlotte
17. Vince pernah menyayangi seseorg..ttp..sayangg...vince kesal kerana dia tidak pernah menghargai pengorbanan vince selama perhubungan itu..VINCE TIDAK MAHU DILUKAI LAGII... LOL! Pernah - Vince!
18. Sonata Musim Salju - Vince
and the finale...

GOSOK, GOSOK, MACAMMM ALADDIN! lol

19. (i forgot the title lahh) Aladdin? - Khai!

Midnight post

2009-05-22T09:00:00.000-07:00

It is now the 23rd of May, 2009

zomg less 6 months to spm. =.=

anyways, back to my post. hello world! i'm bored.

Its a saturdaay. gonna go play badminton tomorow morning, yay! i freakin put on weight okay.. sighs its high time to lose this excess adipose tissue. i need a resolve.

ohh. we're moving soon! che2 dedek, bila dedek come back again?

and so we form 5ians in BL are gonna have our monthly test this monday-thursday. i'm so not prepared. sheesh. Biology is soooo complicated that i nearly forgotten the reason i wanted to take this silly subject in the first place. who the hell cares how fishes move. or how grasshoppers hop. lets say i study biology in sch for 2 years but end up taking something like accounting in college, wont that be a total waste of brain power during that 2 years? yeah, i thought so!

And the bones and the bones and the, dry bones. SOPHIA! =)

ah well, thats how the world turns. it aint all easy peasy lemon squeezey.

oh oh i L-O-V-E Kristina DeBarge! You should be listening to her latest single like..now while reading this post. So nice wei! total girl power. i totally love the whole meaning of the song. hah, and you said i was emo. ppfffttt. =P

i'm a single girl swag. na na na naaa na na na naa

HEY HEY HEY

GOODBYE.

dayum. i love love LOVE the song.

kay kay, time for bed now. i cant wait to get this test over and done with. moreover, get SPM over with so i can enjoy my post-SPM moments. taste of sweet freedom. Oh Dear Lord, please please PLEASE no NATIONAL SERVICE FOR YOUR BELOVED RUBY MANYI CHAN

thank you =)

wants and needs.

2009-05-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

i wanna blog. but then right. just when i wanted to upload some pics to show u the uber huge dog i saw today....i realised the cables are all gone. my sister's room - the room i am in now - is like half empty. her stuff are all already shifted to the new house considering she aint around the whole month. which means, i'll be the one left her in kch to suffer daddy's mood swings when he's busy and under stress when we're house-moving. and yes che, I'll TRY to remember to take pics of the whole process. No promises. =D

so today. i saw the HUGEST MOST UBERLY KOLIEN st. bernard doggie in kenyalang. i know! of all places right! it was so uberly huge. the pup so damn lazy lor. so kolien dem also. everyone touch touch push push poke poke take pic. poor things! they looked to depressed. damn i wish i could show you guys. =O

Went to watch angels and demons today as well, with the youths. Good movie. But i am currently freaked out by huge catholic churches. Freakin movie made me think throughout the whole 2 hours plus of the show - trying to decipher what the clues meant before the dude did. ANYWAY...

Exams season. holidays coming soon. I want my pics! pffft. goodnight world.

zzz

2009-05-09T05:14:00.000-07:00

PISSED. OFF.

SO WHAT IF MOTHER'S DAY IS TOMORO.

listening to paramore to calm me down.

tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now?

HAHA

2009-05-08T03:05:00.000-07:00

whats the date today?

8/05/09

Hari ini merupakan hari yang amat bersejarah dalam ruby's history.

CUT THE CRAP.

Today... Ruby Manyi Chan no. 253 representing Amethyst

won a medal! not just ANY medal.. i won a GOLD PLASTIC medal. eh, i damn proud okay! 1st time in my 11 years of school i never get gold medal during sports day okaaayy.. yay =)

just informing. toodles. =D

to whom it may concern

2009-04-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

i'm SORRY.

i cant even begin to describe how sorry i am. or how bad i feel bout everything that's going down between us.. i wanna make things right. but i dont know howww.. it hurts so bad seeing you this way. i didnt mean any of thiss.. =(

i'm sorry..

i didnt mean to break your heart.. i didnt intend for it to end this way. i want you to be happyy. thats all i want for youu. is that too much to ask? =( just a smile on that face, it'll make my day, trust mee. please.

sorrysorrysorryy.

just give me one more chance to make it right.

.

what?

2009-04-13T00:46:00.000-07:00

what? holidays ending? ALREADY? shits.

i dont like how my weekend went though. it was bitter sweet. hmm

FRIDAY (Good Friday)

if u were wondering, yes i DIDNT go church. Hey its not my fault kay! my parents were busy with the new house. clean clean, tanam jagung. etc etc. so i woke up at around 10.. It was soo nice to sleep in..*yawns* then we went out to spring in the afternoon for The Last Supper, eh, Lunch with Bryan Kho Poi Hou.

I highly recomend Secret Recipe's Prawn Mac and Cheese. OH SALIVATE PEOPLE

(still cant beat The Living Room's cabonara though. HEAVENLY)

Bye BK =(

Yes you can tell i love that girl heaps. <3

SATURDAY (Holy Saturday)

and so, i did NOT go to church also. zz.. So, we had a badminton competition last Saturday.. I dont wanna talk about it. I had to leave early due to my responsibilities with the Girls' Brigade.. We have our very own pioneer council now BTW. Yours truly was unfortunately elected as the Chairperson. I have to deal with the girls who dont pay attention and the girls who talk too much(NOT SAYING ITS A BAD THING). but i love 'em girls. After that i went for worship practice in church. It was uber early loh that dayy. UBER HOT ALSO.zzz.

SUNDAY (Easter)

and yes, I went to church! Praise and Worship was awesomee. THE SKIT DONE BY THE KIDS DAMN CUTE LOR. there was this really cute boy acting as jesus, THE CHAMPION. dayum, i shud've taken a video, or at LEAST a picture or two. Perhaps i could ask some from J, the fly on the wall. He looked like a freakin formal paparazi lor.. Not saying its a bad thingg. Went to SCR express for lunch, saw the youtthh. Funny thing, once someone sees someone you know har, everyone starts texting "ey, i see you.." or calling "WOII! i see you ah weii!" *Stares back at them* "yes i see you too..." =.=

I slept in the WHOLE AFTERNOON from 1-6 i think? is it babe? i dont remember. Hey, at least he said it was cute. Happy liaoo. =D

MONDAY (Easter Monday)

I dont get it, why easter monday? Why got holiday? dont get me wrong! I'M NOT COMPLAINING! i love holidayyyss! but why? HMM.. Another saturday down the drain lor..
Monday just happens to be today. So, this morning was the continuation to our little badminton tournament. i still dont wanna talk about it. we lost to a better team. Gab.is.an.ass =D i came back, i went to sleep, and here i am again

I should be sleeping till around 6. BUT I DIDNT. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY!

I'LL TELL YOU WHY

I had a dream

A BAD DREAM

i was a lesbo. =.= with rachel loi yuen ying.

omg.

no more elaborations needed. zzzzz

i love my baby. <3>

got tuition tonight. zzzzzzzzzz

1 thing 2 say 3 words 4 you

2009-04-10T05:32:00.000-07:00

"when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight."
its weird how stuff like this happen, no? one second ure with somebody, one second u find youre with somebody else. one second you were counting on forever, and in another blink of an eye, forever seems so far away. perhaps that just goes to show that nth really lasts forever in this temporary world. so appreciate what you have when you still have it. appreciate. thats cause we never really know what we have till its gone. but why wait till its gone right? there's no time.. dont let your ego get the best of you. its not worth it.

"every long lost dream, led me to where you are. others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars.."
but then again. we're reminded that God has a plan and purpose for everything that happens. So all that we have to do is trust in Him, and be strong. sounds easy enough huh? trust. its a big word.. so hard to gain, and it hurts so bad when its taken for granted.

"where were you, when everything was falling apart?"
people arent always there for you when you need someone. however, when they are there, its a wonderful feeling huh? knowing someone is there for you. be it lover, a friend, a family member.. but, even at those times when you dont have someone. be reminded that loneliness isnt always a bad thing. it gives you space to think for your own, reflect on the past, look forward to the future..

"because of you, i'd never stray too far from the sidewalk.."
getting left behind, thats the worse feeling in the world.. when someone who means the world to you leaves, it isnt an easy thing to overcome huh.. not easy at all.. you need to pull yourself together and put on a brave face so your friends wont flood you with questions that will only make you more emo. pretend. force fake smiles, perhaps a laugh. sometimes people leave, even when you dont want them to. you beg and you beg for them to stay.. and they just cant care less. they just leave. sometimes its smth they have to do, other times, it just cause they dont care enuf anymore.. but we can never really tell, can we? thats cause, people lie.

"lost and insecure, you found me.."
however, God will never give you something you cant handle.. keep that in mind. God is gracious.. I was content to be alone, and focus on my studies. I was ready to go thru stuff alone. But then, he appeared, and showed me a whole new perspective of life i have never seen before. i am looking at life through his eyes. things can happen so unexpectedly at timess.. sometimes its a bad thing, sometimes, it can be the best thing that could ever happen. a whole new wonderful chapter in my life.

"just give me one more chance to make it right.."
i am not proud of my mistakes in the past, so please dont remind me. imma make sure that i dont repeat my mistakes. all the pain it has caused.. its just so ridiculous. i could've taken it all back if i was given the chance to. but, why shud i right? God already set this path for me. all that matters now is him. and it'd kill me if i did anything to break his heart, or mine.

"if i told you that i realised youre all i ever wanted..and its killing me to be so far away"
would you tell me that you love me too?

okay. sorry for the emo blogpost..

goodbye BK, have fun in perth.. I'll take care of sha here in kuching.. we'll all miss ur lameness terriblyy. and your black myvi which we couldnt find in springg. oh yeah, thanks that you sanggup drive all the way back to fetch me when i was stucked outside my house, and thanks that u didnt mind to turn back when i called again to say nvm.

i'm excited bout tomoro's badminton competition. not bout me playing thoughh. bout me watching others. goodnight!

i just realised i got tagged

2009-04-10T01:43:00.000-07:00

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

1.i love to watch cartoons
2.i like to look at beautiful girls (dont get freaked out bahh, its fun stalking girls lol)
3.i sleep like a log
4.i want to be a superstar LOL
5.i like to bite my lips, i dunno why
6.i scream alot
7.i love to do my hair
8.i wanan be a hair stylist one day. or a fashionistaaa HAHA
9.i wanna record an album..
10.i wanan sing for agung LOL
11.i spend too much
12.i love to eat chicken's ass wahahaa
13. i need a new screen protecter
14.i need to stop spending
15.i eat ALOT

tags
-reening
-sophia
-eunice
-rachel
-jacky yap
-jerry
-lina
-nimai

blablabla. i shud learn to save my money. amen.

Picture of The Day

2009-04-05T23:46:00.000-07:00

Hello, my name is Ng Pui Bun.

lol

I'm kiddinggg.

Wondering why my name is Ng Pui Bun?

Because...(my address is censored for safety purposes LOL)
Russell Lee sends me a letter everytime a new book is published. Wanting me to write more stories to him. BUT WHY THE HECK IS MY NAME NOW NG PUI BUN. zzz. lol.

And if by some twisted will of fate, Ng Pui Bun is currently reading this post. I HAVE YOUR FREAKING LETTER and sorry for advertising your name. lol

okay, lets give blogging another go.

2009-04-03T04:38:00.000-07:00

i'm sorrryyy that i havent been putting up decent posts. so now, lets give it another shot. =D

i actually have 3 movies to watch at the moment. plus baby's in tuition so i need things to do meanwhile. what shall i blog about today? ohh wait, quick review on my week. 30/3/09-3/4/09

My body was still sore this whole week. No thanks at all to the lompat kijang and the lompat jauh AND the physical test Mr. Yakub is making us do. omg i can only do 12 push ups ok! plus i am soooo not flexible. sighs. so it's been a realy painful week, literally. We got our test papers back too. Was not too bad, i'm content with my marks. I managed to beat those people i wanted to beat the crap out of, ie Daniel. lol. Oh, this week we also found out that sports day has been postponed. I know i have mentioned bout it before. screw you, i am upset okay. And this week, Mervin threw his first cakera.. It went sideways though. Note to everybodeh, do not stand of close proximity when this dangerous boy throws the cakera. shot put also wei! haha.

Hmm, Today. Just happened to be the most stressful and busy friday i've ever had. TGIF my head ah! So much work to complete. Zzz.. i think i got 5 dimerits from Pn. Ding for not completing my math work. shits. Oh i went for public speaking audition today. Screw that. I am fat. I fell asleep in tuition today, successfully without being woken up by the kakaks. I am so happy. lol. And i finally reloaded todayy.. 2 whole days of not texting is torture. lol.

So, back to that decent post i was talking about.

HMM.

Okay, so i decided i'll blog bout things that make my world go round.

TWELVE THINGS THAT RUBY LOVES.

GOD. He's not counted cause my love for him is neverending, it is out of this world. Nothing can ever compare to Him, so let me rephrase that

TWELVE EARTHLY THINGS THAT RUBY LOVES

(in no particular order)

1. My FnF's.

Yes, what can i ever do without them. My family, Daddy Mummy Che2 Dedek, Berwick Chloe, Extended Family, Cousins Aunties Uncles, Nenek, Grandies, My besties, Everyone who mean the world to me. I Heart you all.

2. Mervin.

I am not gonna get cheesy and post the cutest picture alive of him cause i'm stingy and i dont wanna share. Teehee. He means so much.
=)

however, there are no vacancies available at the moment. Please try again later, tq. =D

3. FOOD

FOOD MAKES MY WORLD GO ROUND. Damn, no wonder lah i so fat. Stop saying i not okay! i stare at my tummy everyday so i know. Shits. What can I do? I have fallen in love. With glorious food. But this time I know its true. We are meant to be together my love. With your body in me, we can make magic happen. LOL. Its like the feeling you get when you see someone you love after a long day of school. But this is better. HAHA. You know i'm joking. or AM I? HMM.. okay, moving along!

and i particularly HEART ice cream. COME ON PEOPLE, DROOL

4. SHOPPING

Holy MOLEY i heart shopping. I can shop everyday of my living live. (WTF?) ahahahaa. provided i have all the kaching i could ever use. weee.. Which reminds me, i seriously neeed to shop. But I DAMN BROKE LOR. Shits. I Shall study hard and i want money. I want to go on a shopping spree and fill my already full cupboard with even more happy clothes. i dont give a shit bout what my parents say I WILL CONTINUE FILLLING MY CUPBOARD until it explodes!

5. TEXTING

Which teenage girl doesn't like to text you tell me? Har? Its our nature. Deal with it. DEAL WITH IT DADDY. hahahaa.

6. ENTERTAINMENT + TECHNOLOGY

So i got lazy so i'm gonna classify it into one big umm, class? lol. Entertainment would include movies, music, musical instruments, the tv, the computer, anything at all which i find entertaining. Includes my xmexy 6300 and other beautiful gadgets.

7. PHOTOGRAPHY

Yea i love taking pictures. NOT ONLY OF MYSELF OKAY. haha. i discoverd digital micro recently SORRY LA I NOOB. I've always known bout it, but never knew how to use like, properly and nicely. I finally caught an awesome pic few days ago, and its like falling in love all over again. Wheee. I'm definitely gonna start experimenting more on photography. Its freaking interesting.

8. Fashion + Hair

I just love it. I like to dress up and do stuff to my hair. I like to mess my cupboard up digging for my clothes. Go figure. Sometimes i get lazy too. Oh well.

9. Singing, Dancing, Talking

I know you guys cannot agree more with this one. You can tell by the amount of singing and dancing and talking i do in class, you fellow 5Cekap-ians. English is a good language. Enhance it. Embrace it. Live it. Enjoy it. DO NOT KILL IT. (just being random)

10. STUDYING

(this one forced labour one)

HAVE TO LOVE STUDYING. I'm sitting for some major public exam this year so i dont really have a choice do i? I love Bloody Biology, madly in love with Sucky Sejarah, Cocky Chemistry, Paloi Physics and Annihilating Add Maths. Woot!

11. The Colour Pink.

anything PINK

(please people, be realistic. Soft, gentle pink lah. Not those bright neon "pink"s. I can NOT believe such an ugly shade of pink exists in this cruel world. Brings shame to the colour and all the wonders it brings.)

12. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY

OH SHUT UP J! He's gorgeous.

dayum.

I'm done. Tiring la blogging. haha. Till next time, PEACE OUT (HAHA RACHEL XD)

oh WHATEVER. HAHA

=D

2009-04-01T08:02:00.003-07:00

ah yes, i know i didnt update when i say i would. lol. sorry laa. busy bahh. btw, my exam results were acceptable =)

and sports day got postponed. =.= all that looking forward to nothing!

and i'm involved in st john foot drill. i feel so damn palat lor. haha

mervin cut his hair HAHA =D

today got homework.. its amazing ok! one month busy with exams, not used to work nymore. lol

facebook is not working. wth

msn is not working x2 wth

i overslept this afternoon, but thanks to certain people who wanted to pull a prank on me, i woke up. thank god for mervin =)

johan is a terrible liar .

i am sleepy

i will do my homework in class tomoro

i will finally bring some books to school.

SPORTS DAY POSTPONED. omg did i say that already? paiseh lorr

lester and i are fine =)

paul is a noob in kawad. ah puii! boing boing

sha can kawad! omg! lol

sha has a "s" problemss.

ST JOHN UNIFORM DAMN HUGE LOR. the shirt. the pants damn tight, and its hanging for me =(

that shows that i shdnt palat gb, HOR?

but boohoo.

i wanna see mervin's hair. hahaha

baldieeee

lets go sleep.

sex drive is stupid =.=

its only 11

OMG ITS THE FIRST OF APRIL! spm is drawing near.

i'm nervous bout impromptu speeches.

i gotta stop making random statements

good.night!

decent post

2009-03-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

tuning into paramore

+

a jam packed day

=

ruby blogging decently.

amen..

so, today started off with a regular sunday. awesome worship in church. dancing normally, a huge wardrobe malfunction though. dress kinda see through so i wore my black top in it. but my black top kept showing loh. ended up i kept adjusting my dress every 2 mins. lol. after church mummy and i went to spring for lunchhh. saw the youths there. ate my gu bak mee. went home. lol. den got a text from sha. got dressed, and went out to spring again. shopped till sien. bought the most awesome-est shirt in the whole world. den ate some more. damn. lol

this isnt much of a blogpost, is it? lol

wait la, i got pics. wait for it.. lol.

early bday.

2009-03-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOSES EZRA LEE.

thanks for the awesome food. lol

random statements

2009-03-19T02:02:00.000-07:00

WARNING : The following images may contain harmful contents which may or may not deteriorate your brain cells. Parental guidance is advised.

nahh. just messing with ya. =D

sorry la i got long legs. but i heart that dress. =D

sylvia my babeh. =)
.

i call this one.. fat girl lost in space. lol
.
now for the random statements.

i'm pissed and i think too much
-

i'm angry and fat.

i feel dumb. how in the world can 6+3+2 = 8?! *peng* HAH BABE?

holidays are no good for a girl like me i tell you

NO GOOD AT ALL

imagine this.

she didnt shop all week long.

OMG RIGHT!

she stayed at home almost all week long

this deserves another, OMG RIGHT

dad's stressed out over the new house renovations.

sheesh. no nid to let out on me RIGHT!

let me go out maaa.. babi

someone's scared that i'll blog about him. =D

i wont....for now. eheh

from where i'm sitting, i can see this very tempting slice of cheese cake
-

gawsh. FATNESS. resist temptation ruby, resist temptation.
-

going back to school soon, WEE!

=.=

tomorrow's friday already? wow thats fast.

why is everybody so busy but me? oh i'm scared now.

shud i be studying?

shud i even ask myself that question?

byebye =)

holidays..

2009-03-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

aduh, this holidays boring lar. nothing to do onee. everyone's busy.. bk also going to kl. i tell you ah, sitting in his car damn fun okay. its a death ride. ahha. btw, all the best in perth rich boy! remember our little deal. carbonara! (just cause i wanna eat too, eheh) plus baby's always soooo busy. pfftt..cant wait for his car to be done, and him to get his freakin license. lol

basically my whole week's gonna be about tuitions, rehearsal, more tuitions. zzz.. i cant wait to go back to school lor. =x .... did i just say that? *awkward silence* i wanna watch space buddies. darn dvd always stuck stuck one. i thampar.

oh oh, went to watch race to witch mountain yesterday. cool movie oh. (thats the best i can come up with. wtf i'm losing it. lol)

i'm so bored. nothing to blog about alsoo.. OMG i am so miserable. damn.

*switches to emo mode*

I set out on a narrow way many years ago

Hoping I would find true love along the broken road

But I got lost a time or two

Wiped my brow and kept pushing through

I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]

Every long lost dream led me to where you are

Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms

This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road

That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through

I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you

But you just smile and take my hand

You've been there you understand

It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true[

I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms

This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

hear me out. i'm speaking. =)

video video!

2009-03-17T00:13:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlG556DZ6ZE

watch it.

i dare you to. =DD

random silliness + boredom = this. wee!

updates updates updates. random random

2009-03-14T08:05:00.000-07:00

ok la ok laaaaa.. sorry i so long no update lor. ehh, exams okay.. nth to talk about one. plus, no time. and i'm freakin pissed off lor. exams are a major pain in the ass. =.=

currently addicted to:
My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson.

ah!

so. what have i been up to.

exams over dy. but apparently i still not happy lor. cause i know after i come back from hols, sure die. after creating such a clean report book for 2008, i think its gonna get dirty this year with red marks lor. *pouts*

today i play badminton. funfun. today paul chia lunch. funfun. today went to gb. funfun. tomorrow, play piano in church. nervousnervous, but still, funfun. =)

ruby wants to go shopping.
ruby's phone is dying.,
its dyingggg =((

today, i saw ex form-5ers. they look the same to meeee.. 3 months dont change people de larr. haha. jeffie has longer bushier hair.. ahyan's hair is longer, as expected.. sen kai, same same nia.. j's always like that. lol. i wanna see more ex-form 5ers.

i dont like bio loh. i study so hard and still i cannot answer. damn behsong lor. zzz. add math paper 2 was hell, that was expected. i regret lor, my math i didnt revise for paper 1.. i forgot how to do some, throw away precious marks.. but i revised for paper 2 so it was okay =). english, i wrote bout happinesss.... =D the rest, no comment. i just realised chemistry is hard. =O

people, bring me out this holidays! OI!

want pictures? boohoo. dont have. my phone dying liao. cannot connect the usb. cannot bluetooth. ahh bullcrap

ohh ohh we went to onetj for dinner that day. but end up taking pics lor. mostly i uploaded to my mum's laptop so for now, all i have is this. =S

i have one more pic which features me and this group of boys. omg they damn hot lor ok. i was looking away in that direction, and cuncun there's this group of guys coming down the escalator. HAHA

and i just realised people like to kacau me. very fun harrrr...... sniff

ohoh, badminton competition coming up soon. sports day too. and my stamina damn teruk loh. how like this. ah paul ahhhh!

ruby wants spaghetti carbonara from the living room!

ruby wants to go shopping.

ruby HEARTS LEE YONG DAE.

and CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY

and MATTHEW DALLAS.

aduh, jangan jealous babeh. =D

confessions of a shopaholic is not what i expected.

ohh its march. happy birthday to..*takes deep breath* lina, gab, julian, jocelyn, j, sharon, and nat. ehh, not that many ler. lol

hmm. sleep time. sorry for the totally random statements. no story line one my blogpost. sorry loh, i havent been updating in a while so lot to say mar. haha.

quickie

2009-03-02T21:28:00.000-08:00

so, bryan went to mssm last week..

and he came back.
BLACK

the end. i shall go study. =D

suppose...

2009-03-02T06:24:00.001-08:00

i'm SUPPOSED to be studying.

but sejarah is so stupid..

HOW THE HELL DO YOU FINISH READING THIS STUPID THING

poopies.

hair~

2009-03-01T00:35:00.000-08:00

TODAY...I.. realised my hair was ugly and puffy. and also TODAY..I... cut my hair cause it was ugly and puffy. =)
and its a big deal for me cause i CUT MY HAIR!
for the first time in what..6 months? =D

its alot THINNER.. and and NOT shorter.. and and! like that lor. lol

I LOOK SO FAT IN THIS PIC. omgomgomgomgomgomg!!!!!

study timee! OMG TOMORO EXAM. si behh nervous.

ahhhh!!

2009-02-28T06:53:00.000-08:00

study study STUDY LA RUBY. moron.

i need to go jogging.

damn.

should i join badminton singles?

suicidal. but i want!

SUICIDAL...but i still want.

satu kosong~

BUT ITS SUICIDAL

BUT I WANT!

therefore, i shall go jogging.

cause i BO STAMINA

found meself a jogging partner, =D

so now, i shall find time. which is harder than finding a jogging partner. =.=

dua kosong~

and i NEED TO STUDY LIAO LOR!

TIGA KOSONG!

no idea what i'm talking about?

dont worry, i dono what i'm talking bout either.

sheesh

i'm so hungry.

i'm so cold and confused.

I HAVE NO STAMINA

i feel so stupid

i feel weird

I'm beginning to hate my hair

i LOVE MATT DALLAS

AND CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY

and am currently addicted to

Seung RI's Strong Baby

OMG RIGHT I'M LISTENING TO KOREAN BOY BANDS

omg. I'M LOSING IT

i'm feeling damn emo but i'm too hungry so the emo-ness is left untreated

I HAVE NO STAMINA

i am creditless

he's avoiding me

i'm getting involved in too many things!

i'm BROKE

i'm not ready for exams

i'm PROCRASTINATING

I HAVE NO STAMINA!!!!!!!!

i have so many problems...~ (achmed's voice)

so long and goodnight! i wanna be sane wei!

updates!

2009-02-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

SO people..

we celebrated Lester's birthday recently. 20/2/09 so happy bday again buddy! =D
we all love that short dude. =)

it was suppose to be a big group, but SOME people PALAT. YER, no lar, i'm sure you guys have soild reasons. ahah. so ther were only five of us left. leon lester darren gabriel and i. we started off with lunch in hilton, where we were the noisiest table (=D). its actually pretty fun hanging out with all guys, u get to explore the world that guys live in. mainly, girls and sex-related topics. =.= it was cool though ahaha.

then we walked to star.. for a movie. gab wanted to watch valkyrie. so we did. and we ALL fell asleep except gab. =.= damn boring moviee.. 2 hours plus some more. so after the movie, there was still some time, so we caught another movie. House. hmm. okay okay nia laa. wasnt as scary as i expected. =D

twin towers wei. =D

then, we went for dinner at the living room after walking form star to sp and to the living room under the rain. =.= lucky i got my tudung. GOD FORBID. food there's good. AWESOME environment. end of day, everyone happy. couldn't take picture cause my lousy camera cannot take picture. too dark punya environment. and i hate leon's camera on his phone. so uglly. plus the boys arent girls, so no one wanna take pic with me =(

exams coming up! wish me luck! =O

photo caption not available. xD

Laugh of the day,

2009-02-18T22:24:00.000-08:00

"gosh, i so HOT ah. HOTTTT!!!!" *fans self*
me : *looks at wayne weirdly*
"whaat? WAAAA SO HOTTT!! i'm so hot. hotdog! hotdogg."
me : *continues to look at wayne weirdly, almost bursting into laughter*
"issh, dont look at me like thatt. hotdogg. want a bite?"
me : *can hardly control laughter but still manages to pull it off*
"eat la, i dont mind being eaten by a pretty ggirl."
ME~ :*BURSTS INTO LAUGHTERRR!!*

lol. wayne wayne, you crack me up everyday with your lameness!

dont cry for me, argentinaaaa

2009-02-14T07:42:00.000-08:00

i was going for the whole emo-lonely-valentiner look, but i think i failed =P

ahh well, how was YOUR valentines day peoplee?

mine was all about waiting 2 hours for food.

shakalaka baby

and babes yun's missing! =S she went to play scrabbleee..

go figure. nite!

=)

2009-02-13T07:47:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day.

i love you

you love mee

we're a happy familly!

with a great big HUG

and a kiss from me to you. mwah.

wont you say you love me too?

come on, say it, i know you want to. ;)

planetshakers was awesome this year btw, woohoo!

heyy i got tagged

2009-02-10T05:31:00.001-08:00

RANDOM FACTS :..

001. Real name: Ruby Manyi Chan
002. Nicknames: Bie, Rubs, snoopy =.=
003. Married: ahaha, nope
004. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius
005. Male or female: Female
006. Age: 16 going 17
007. High school: SMK Batu Lintang
008. College: Belom
009. Residence: BDC
010. Hair color: brownish black
011. Long or short hair: in between
012. Smoke: not my cup of tea
013. Drink: drink wad? lol
014. Available: umm.. no. lol
015. Are you a health freak: not exactly. ngek
016. Weight : 54 kg. omg right!
017. Do you have a crush?: ahaha, he's not a crush
018. Do you like yourself: i'm content. lol
019. Piercings: gottt
020. Tattoos: tidak ada
021. Righty or lefty: Righty.....

FIRST:.
022. First surgery: in primary 3. fractured elboww
023: First piercing: ears
024. First best friend/s: audrey and jacob
025. First award: prmary one! no. 1 in class lehh, good job good job xD
026. First memory: lol. how shud i noeee
027. First pet: jamiee. the dog
028. First vacation: langkawi i think?
029. First concert: not quite sure. i think it was ER.
030. First crush: ahahah. those were the dayss

LAST:..
031. Last time you went out: just now
032. Last time you had a good time: in school this morning. omg righhtt!
033. Last time you cried: wow, i really cant rememberr =)
034. Last award: erm. GB award i guess
035. Last trip abroad: to sibu
036. Last concert: umm. whats his name again. some guy from somewhere in ACS. lol
037. Last album you bought: i never buyy. =P
038. Last song you played: the fray - you found me
039. Last phone call: Carlston
040. Last laugh: just nowwww

PICK ONE:..
041. Summer or winter: summer loh, like i have a choice
042. Rainy or sunny: rainy. i know, i'm weird
043. Britney or Christina: britneyyy~ ahaha. me britney fan okay
044. TV or YouTube: TV..
045. Oprah or Tyra: tyraa
046. McD’s or KFC: KFC! me kfc fan also okaayy
047. Soccer or tennis: tennis!
048. New york or San Francisco: New York!

CURRENTLY:..
049. Eating: ntohinggg
050. Drinking: air liur ku?
051. Wearing: oversized t-shirt and shorts
052. Im about to: sleep..
053. Listening to: the fray - you found me. over and over again

FAVORITES :..
054. Food: aLOT.
055. Drinks: green tea.. hmm
056. Colors: pink white black
057. Numbers: 6.

YOUR FUTURE :..
058. Want kids: yeshhh
059. Want to get married: *nods head* yesshh!
060. Life: is tiring at times... *emo moment*
061. Goals: successful and live happily ever after with the perfect person to spend life with
062. Where will you live: somewhere but here
063. Buy a house: yess
064. Buy a car: of course!

YOUR PARENTS :..
066. Love your mom?: yess!
067. Love your dad?: yesssh
068. Are they still together?: YESSS

WHICH IS BETTER? :..
068. Lips or eyes: BOTH!
069. Hugs or kisses: BOTTHHH!!
070. Shorter or Taller: TALLER.
071. Lean or plump: lean..
072. Romantic or spontaneous: BOTH!
.073 . Nice stomach or nice arms: DEFINITELY BOTH
074 . Sensitive or loud: BOTH...at different times
075 . Hook-ups or relationships: relationships

(what? i'm pickkkyy.. =P)

HAVE YOU EVER :..
076. Bungee-jumped: i want!
077. Shook hands with someone important: wawa, umm. vince! loll
078. Kissed a stranger: lol, NO
079. Drank bubbles: well, do foams count?
080. Lost glasses/contacts: i dont use bothh eheh
081. Ran away from home: thought of.. but no. no heartt xD
082. Liked someone younger: not my cup of teaa
083. Older: YES
084. Broken someone’s heart: sorry lor....
085. Been arrested: nooo
086. Turned someone down: yea haa
087. Cried when someone died: yeap. =(
088. Liked a friend: its weird when that happens no?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:..
089. Yourself: most of the times
090. Miracles: it just happened =)
091. Love at first sight: well, it happens
092. Heaven: yess
093. Santa clause: NOh =.=
094. Sex on the first date: lol, big nono
095. the more you hate, the more you love: thaats what mummy always say. bullcrap leh
096. Angels: yesh

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :..
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: yeaahh. where are you babe? :(
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: i'm super loyal aite!
099. Do you believe in God?: YES
100. Will you tag 10 people to continue this game: *edited* I CHANGED MY MIND. i TAG REENING. =D

ahahhaa, boredness + emoness + sivik period = this

2009-02-10T00:04:00.000-08:00

i got bored and i missed him aLOT.

so this is the end product.

oii sayang, you said stickman right?

neh, got tiny tiny teeny there. cutee lehh.

hee. and it only took me..

3 periods to draw. =.=

meditate on this. aumm.

2009-02-07T23:46:00.000-08:00

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep?
When we cry?
When we imagine?
When we kiss?
This is because the most beautiful things in the world
are unseen.
We are all a little weird
and life's a little weird
and when we find someone whose weirdness
is compatible with ours,we join up with them
and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
There are things that we never want to let go of,
people we never want to leave behind,
but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world,
it's the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,
those who have searched and those who have tried.
For only they can appreciate the importance of the people
who have touched their lives.
A great love..
It's when you shed tears and still you care for him,
it's when he ignores you and still you long for him.
It's when he begins to love another
and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.
If love fails, set yourself free,
let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it,
but when love dies,you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win
but those who stand back up when they fall.
Somehow along the course of life,
you learn about yourself and realize
there should never be regrets,
only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
A true friend understands when you say, I forgot,
waits forever when you say, just a minute,
stays when you say leave me alone,
opens the door even before you knock
and says can I come in?
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,
not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel,
and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.
Outward tears can be wiped away
while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win
but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone
more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone
not because that person has stopped loving us
but because we have found out
that they'd be happier if we let go.
It's best to wait for the one you want
than settle for one that's available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one
because life is too short to waste on just someone.
Sometimes the one you love
turns out to be the one who hurts you the most,
and sometimes the friend who takes you
into his arms and cries when you cry
turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.
If you really love someone never let go,
don't believe that letting go means that you love best,
instead fight for your love,that's what true love is.
Laugh to your heart's content; you cannot go through life without it

hiee!

2009-02-05T06:16:00.000-08:00

to whom it may concern, jangan perasan reening. lol.

heyy babee. =) welcome to my blog. view view la, see what monkey business i've been up to here in kuching, hee.. xoxo!

what i did today

2009-01-29T06:21:00.000-08:00

today would be the 4th day of cny.. which was...a tad bit sour.. but mostly sweet. =D

busybusy day today was! i woke up feeling moody and down cause of the pouring rainn.. and i didnt feel like going anywhere at all! but calls were made and texts were sent and before i knew it, i was on my way to darren's place for new years' visiting. omg omg, i saw the cutest being on the puh-la-net at da's place! mummy, i want a maltese.. =( i didnt take a pic, cause i obviously was too fascinated by it, and was chasing it EVERRRYWHERE. omg omg, i wanntttt.

den we continued our visiting to yun's place lor. from there, nimai picked me up and we went visiting some more in the cold cold weatherrr.. uhuhu. but fun leh, started gambling at andy's placee.. lost a ton to liang wie, the BIGTWO king. sheesh, but paul paid for our 2nd round lah, hee.. i won in the end too!....about 40 cents =.= still smth right! ngehh. overall, i won moneh leh.. yik yong lost a bundleeeee.. lol keshian. from larry's place i went to my aunt's place with family. see, a fun packed day with friends and familyy.. a good day it was indeed. chinese new year fun lehh! || reality update || school's starting on monday! shits.

i like to crop, so? nice what, ehehh, we were jamming at larry's place.
"thats what you get when you let your heart win.. whooahh!"

i like drums what. yik yong called me "cho-lo". hmmphh i thampar!

darren's pup look like that leh! but got black colourr.. eee, i wanttt!

omg i love this pic lahh.. see ju's face wei! aahah

..

your eyes, telling me lies.

quickie

2009-01-28T06:28:00.000-08:00

*will be edited/new posts after cny madness!

i HEART this season! money luluuu.. =D

family potrait + "almost-family" alex

i'm off to go ang pow hunting again! and and gamblingg.. and getting fat..
oh i hope hope we go out tomoro lor, =D
i wanna shop ler.. ahahah. temptations! spend my money before i lose it for something useless like gambling.
GOD FORBID.

yeaa.

lets go celebrate your birthday babe! =D

random.

2009-01-17T20:56:00.000-08:00

random pictures of our performance in tHe Spring, Kuching on the 13th of Dec.

on the left, we have pokie, the red-haired(at the time) flowerhorn. i think he'll go blue at the end of this year, who knows, pokie? ahah. and the dreaming daniel..

open wide!

nice pic, eh?

introducing, guin and i. =)

today.

2009-01-17T04:56:00.000-08:00

so busy leh today, but it was all worth itt.. eheh.

i barely had time to breathe today, but it was all worth it.

i felt so freakin down today.. but it was ALL worth itt..

i see you smiling back at me, .. =)

omg,100th post! this is HUGE! lol

2009-01-15T15:18:00.000-08:00

ITS THURSDAAAAAAYYYYY =)

On a Sunday..

2009-01-11T03:15:00.000-08:00

Picture of The Day.

Introducing - my homework. =.= i'll get to them once i'm finished with this post.

oh lookie! i'm finished with this post, ahahah! No more reasons to procrastinate, Ruby. =.=

check yes, romeo.

2009-01-10T04:48:00.000-08:00

Uh, busy busy rainy day it was..

First of all, i woke up at 12! today.. wa wa! Feels so good lah okeyh, when will be the next time horr.. after this, no such luck liao leh. School, school.. SPM. Grr.. eh, cny so near hor! Saya masih belum pergi shoppiang untuk baju baru lerh, mana boleh ini macam.. SO, who wants to go shopping? =D

Why rain so much hor. Is God sad too? Aww.. We should do something to cheer Him up no? We’ve done too much to disappoint Him already. =(

I wanna vent. I’m so sad =(

But i can’t.. =((

"Hey you, yeah i’m talking to you.. How could you do this to mee. See, i have to promote you in my blog pulak, cause youre all i think about. Hmph. Yea, i know youre reading this. So, how’d your day go? I didn’t wanna ask you leh, cause talking to you would bring unwanted feelings back leh.. not i don’t want pun, you yang don’t want. Hmphh. Plus you never reply me de. So jahat lar you.. i feel so unwanted. BOOHOO.

I know youre being cold just to get rid of me hor. Good la, don’t be too nice to mee.. i don’t deserve it, =( take caree.. Take good care.."

Countdown to Thursday. 5 days. =D i’m happy again.. Hee.

Week 1.

2009-01-09T05:39:00.000-08:00

School’s been so hectic. So much work to do, and so much to learn.. Week 1’s been okay..

super cold though! The poor person who has to endure with me for one whole year is Leon, my buddy. Poor guy has to put up with my stories and complaints and blur-ness. But i am SO proud of him! He’s actually studying and doing his homework! *faints* hey, its leon okay. Lol. Umms, well, my teachers are okay lah. Pissed with my moral teacher though..Moral’s the only subject i don’t pay attention in class.. oh hawt dayum. The rest are actually pretty okay. Motivates me to study.. its either they’re really strict or really fun.. and btw, WHAT IS UP WITH TEACHER’S getting pregnant? Its bad enough that you have to imagine them doing it, but now you have no bm teacher cause she’s busy producing babies =.=

BM – Pn Wong Lee Chin (pregnant, in labour, yeah that crap. So no bm for one week already)
BI – Pn Teresa Ng. She’s kewl
Maths – Pn. Ding. She’s sooo cute. Ahahah..
Add Maths – Pn. Hasmah. Why she so bad mood these days hoh? Scary
Sejarah – Mr. Mahendran. Lol, i don’t even know how to spell his name.. he’s okay lah
P. Moral – Pn. Alice Manggoi. Ngeh, no further elaborations =.=
PJ/PK – En. Yakub. Correct spelling kaa? Eh. He’s damn cool lah okay.. we actually learning stuff for PJ this year, haha!
Biology – Pn. Su SIu Fong. I can bet my ass that she’s pregnant, again. =.=
Chemistry – Pn. Anne. Damn strict, damn fast, challenging, i like
Physics – Pn. Haryati. She’s niceee.. sassy.

Hmm.. what am i forgetting...

Oh!
EST – Mr. Matthew Chin. He reminds me of my daddy.. ahaha.
PSK – Pn. Melor. Dono leh, i haven’t paid attention in her class yet.. xD

SO, today..
I went to visit my new housee.. its purrrtey. I got pics, but cant upload now.. will upload soon! And umm, i nearly died today.. damn big longkang lah okay. Zzz.

edited * as promised, picha's..

rumah baruku.. lokasinya dirahsiakan untuk tujuan keperibadian. dont tee-pee my houseee

daddy - gazing into the future? (location, upstairs balconyII)

i want the bigger room =(

the river that almost overflow-ed. and the longkang that i nearly died in. lol. hey, damn scary la okayh.

I.am.going.insane.

Let me elaborate more on that point.

No.1
- I am now on my mum’s laptop, in my mum’s room. She’s watching a horror movie. I.am.dying.
No. 2
- School’s killing me.. bloody teachers driving me crazy with all the making me tension stuff. Mr Lee la, Cikgu Mahendran lah, who else. Heh. Just shoot me now
No. 3
- Thursday’s a good day =) yes, its making me insane waiting for that day.. lol
No. 4.
- Should i start studying like, now?
No. 5
- I think too much =/

So how now? die or no die?

.

2009-01-06T01:47:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry...

quickie

2009-01-04T06:29:00.000-08:00

i'm just gonna post pictures to ensure that i'll blog this once i got the time.. it is now 10.30pm on a sunday night, and i have school tomoro morning! i'm getting up at 5 cause sha's picking me up super early to reserve the best seats in class... =.= anyways, these are the pics taken at the caroling appreciation dinner we had at Chef's Special just now.. its actually a really nice place, and there were TWO weddings going on the the same time! ahahhaa.. oh well, we had our own private room and there was karaoke! apa lagi, sing sing larrr.. ahaha

pokie went cuckoo~ lol

we were the gila group.. eheh!

and scarf boy went.."i aint photogenic".. lol

goodbye 2008, hello 2009.

2009-01-01T03:14:00.000-08:00

i love how i spent my new year's eve and new year's day.. =)

i cant believe its actually 2009 ALREADY. whoahh. time flies huh? before u know it, i'll be old and fat with 12 kids, HAHA, just kidding.. but really lar, its like so fast. omg, i'm in FORM 5. *faints and gains consciousness then looks at calendar and faints again* i know, lame. but well, I'm a freakin form5-ian. freakazoik. SPM. pressure. stress. damn. dies.

wow, the year 2008 has been a really great year though.. i couldnt have spent it better. hee.. despite all the things that has happened, well, God is a fair God, no? there has to be a balance.. otherwise we'll get too spoilt and well, take things for granted.. damn, so sentimental. *weeps*

How I Spent My Previous Year, by Ruby Manyi Chan

. I stepped into form 4.. into 4 CEKAP. i was pissed. but then again, glad, cause i love my classmates.. hee.. God knows what to do with this piece of wreck.
. I changed seating mates quite regularly. from grez, to rachel, to yun2 and nice, then leon, then rachel again.. haha. noisy class, good times =)
. I didnt flunk ANY subject *bangga bangga* hey. damn proud la ok. no red mark, freakin happy ah. =D
. i learnt to love biology.. ahaha. screw you, its fun.
. i learnt to hate add maths. not entirely, YET. and to think we were getting along pretty well.... sniff sniff
. insulting rachel is fun. u shud try it, ahaha!
. pn normala IS pregnant! yes, we all thought she was just fattt.. lol. shh.. she's a really nice lady.
. pn barzati is a time bomb. she explodes!
. cikgu ridos is a cute gorilla!
. j and i never got caught paktoh-ing. ahahaha! damn proud man.
. canteen beehoon is nice!
. ling shin yin damn smart. she should move class. lol. noh noh, i'm kidding, we all love her. =)
. our class has too many issues. =.=
. shopping, we must do. ehehe
. holidays went by really quickly!
. two totally adorable dogs dropped from the sky!
Berwick Beckham Junior-Chan and Chloe Chanel Chan. =))
. spent christmas with j =)
. spent new year's with j. =))

New Year's Resolution.

. study.ass.off.for.spm. =.=
. be kind-er to rachel. lol
. motivate leon to study.
. kick stuck up college girls' asses.
. save. save. save!!!
. figure out where to go after spm...
. get.driver's.licence!!
. get the bigger room in new house
. be more understandin to others.
. learn to speak chinese more fluently

Goodbye 2008, hello 2009! =)

tag tag tag tag taggggg

2008-12-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Eunice

How old are you?
16 years and 29 days!

Are you single?
noh. eheh

In what age do you think you'll get married?
probablyy.... 24 and abovee.. give me some time to graduate and settle down for a job first larr.. eheh

Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
we'll see how it goesss =)

If not, who do you want to marry?
we'll still see how it goesss.... eheh

Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
i want a garden weddingg. you know, with the gazeebo's and everything. very ang mo, i like. lol

Your ideal motive?
total world domination. muahahahahha =.= i'm so random at times. lol

Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
bali would be nice.. or if no bajet, pulau pinang.. lolllllll. hey, support visit malaysia year, every yearr. lol

How many guests do you think you'll invite?
well that really depends. eheh. i dont mind a small wedding.. with my closest frens and familyy.. but..a huge one would be nice too.. eheh

Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
refer to the above lol

Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
my ownnn. its more special that way =)

How many layers of cake do you want?
i want 3 min. lol . and all real, no fake! later my husband turns out 2% realy and 98% fake, HOW! =.=

Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
either or, asal kacak. eheh

When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
as in church service? hmm.. give me like, half a day to get readyy.. lol.

You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
i would prefer outdoors... BUT malaysian weather is SO menjengkelkann.. (yes, i have to practice my bm for SPM, lol)

Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
my groom? why? me leh? loll. i'm kiddiang

Name the song you like to play on your wedding.
havent thought about it!

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Bit of both

Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
solemn...? lol. lighhtt!

Describe your ideal husband/wife?
understanding, hot, loyal, dependable, patient, PATIENT, PATIEENNTT, always has time for me, romantic, LOYAL (yes LOYAL loyal), listens to my kinda music, dances to my kinda beat, treats me right, TREATS ME RIGHT, loving, kind. =) omg, i am soooo demanding, eheh

Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
fine dining lar. wedding once in a lifetime bahh lol

Champagne or red wine?
white wine. lol

Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days..

Money or household items?
Both.

Who will pay for the bills?
heh, my husband i guess. lol

Are you ready for married life?
oh now? no, totally no. i still havent finish fantasizing yet! no such luck in real life, unfortunately, boohoo

Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
ohh yess. strictly.. eheh

Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
why your questions so lidat one. lol. yes,thats why he's called, my husband

How many kids would you like to have?
2? i guess?

A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
new?

What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
western? but chinese i like too.. eheh

Will you record your honeymoon in VCD/DVD?
ohh definitelyy. =)

Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
1. Beth
2. Lina
3. Guin
4. Reening, HAHA
5. SOPHIA. =DD

updates!

2008-12-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

hello world!

so...what has ruby been up to..?

1. Caroling. (fun fun fuN!)

i heart these ppl.. lol

caroling's fun.. sing sing, eat eat.. fellowship with others, play in rain, buat bising in the van, scream to the world.. make fun of calvin.. laugh our butts off.. and.. i created history. ahahaha

1.1 i...ate...

laksa....loll.....

if seen, do not approach this sakai person. lol

lol again, lol. i know, i got enough comments all around already. eg.
"adduuu.. u missed out alot on ur 16 years on earth..."
"aduuuu.. what kinda chinese are youuuu."
"lol....rubyy..."
"HAH?!"
"you gotta be kiddin right? O.o <-- literal face expression!" shh.. =.=

1.2 i solved a.... (well, almost)

gigantic rubik's cube. lol

it.was.huge.and.keras =.=

1.3 i dyed my hair.... tidak percaya?

blue. ahaha.

no further elaborations. xD

1.4 i sat on a maasage chair.. and got laughed at. eh, cute what! ahaha

sakai-ness . =.= excuusee-mua

2. I went to a pet store!

and.. i saw the cutest little thing!

she was shyyy..

but i finally caught her, yay!

can shake hand de wor. note to self, must teach berwick to persistently shake hands and sits. ding!

ruby has been doing other stuff, but then malas wanna blog cause nadai picture.. no oohm la if no picture, so i malas. heh, oh well, christmas is nearr! =DD i liiiikkkeee.. ehehh.. so long and goodnight world!

tags..

2008-12-11T19:36:00.000-08:00

8 people to tag:
So, I tag :
Guin
Yvonne
Nimai
Yan
Eunice
Sophia
Lina
Reening

8 things I am passionate about:
Piano
fashion
music
Movies
j xD
FOOD
dancing
guitars

8 things I say too often
lawllll
omgg
hey?
i knoooww!!
hah?
bodoo
tupidd
i suuuk lol

8 movies I have watched recently
Madagascar 2
The vampire who admires me
twilight
pirates of the carribean 2. lol
HSM 3?
wonder dogs too
snakes on a plane
american pie 2

8 songs that I can listen to over and over again
T-shirt - Shontelle
only One - yellowcard
i'm getting over you - the click five
paramore - decode
paramore - pressure
paramore - let the flames begin
paramore - misery business
HSM - right here, right now =.=

8 things I learned the past year
form 4 is okay lah
spm is important =.=
smkbl punya maintanence banyak lousy. =.=
appreciate my smexy 6300 more =.=
emotions - logic = faith =)
make.right.decisions.
i shop alot O.o
pn normala is pregnant after all.. lol

8 places I like to go in Kuching
LOL

8 things that you will be doing today
print out christmas songs for xmas party
shopping
practice for xmas party p&w
practice for performance tomoro in spring
eat
sleep
breathe
miss my boo (heck i arleady do =.=)

8 things I regret this past year:
being too hard on some people
treated some people wrongly
didnt treat my phone right =/
forgot to appreciate what i had
didnt study hard enuf
didnt go for sabah camp =(
cut my hair =.=
didnt spend enough time with God. *looks down*

dot.

2008-12-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

I CANNOT BLOG..or i dont want to.

why.
cause no pics
why.
cause my phone's still somewhere in this world, under repairmation.. (LOL)

I straightened my hair.

why.
cause i cant stand my hair nemore
so?
not much difference. and i hate the kinks at the back.
i wanna kill it...*smirks*

i'm so super busy for christmas

with what.
caroling. performance at spring. (13th DECEMBER 2008, 7.30pm onwards). celebration night on 3rd and 4th Jan. and the practices are ALL CLASHING. ROAR. i wanna spend my holiday with my baby too waa.. and my family.. roarrr

i'm suppose to go kl but i'm not. =/

why.
cause daddy say waste money =.= cause we bolui =.= cause we move house =.=

i miss my baby

why.
cause i didnt get to be with him todayyyy.. and that made me crankyy. and i probably won't be able to be with him till like, next week.. ROAR

i.need.pics. i bet none of you are reading this right now cause no pics. hah. lol

byebye

titleless

2008-12-02T05:21:00.000-08:00

"
* When i get jealous, It's because i love you.
* When i cry, It's because I doesnt want you to leave me.
* When i'm angry, It's because i misunderstood you.
* When i feel blank, I miss you.
* When i'm a n g r y, it's because i care for you."

i'm sorry, babe.

and omg. u just HAVE to watch this girl on youtube!
Charice Pempengco.
she's AMAZING.

ruby is on paramore mode..

2008-12-02T04:17:00.000-08:00

"cause i fear i might break, cause i fear i cant take it.."
"my thoughts you cant decode."
"thats what you get when you let your heart win."
"somethings i'll never noe, and i had to let them go."
"if you think i'd bleed then you were wrong, cause i wont stop holding on"

paramore . *hearts*

ruby is.
-addicted to twilight (the BOOK)
-and always will be addicted to paramore
-on holidays
-not as bored as she expected she would be
-going to be broke. :year end sales. teehee
-missing..baby
-getting taller. gosh
-addicted to 90210!
-loves my baby doggies

ok ok, enough lol

my phone, yes my smexy 6300....

is dead.

ok not exactly.. but its been lying on the hospital bed longer than it should! sighs. it all started one thursday evening.... i skipped carolling practice for some wedding dinner in hilton. yes yes, the temptation of good food has completely tricked me into coming.. lol. i wasnt receiving any texts at all all afternoon from my baby so i thought something was wrong.. although it was his last day of exams, at least a text ba righht? so i thought he forgotten about me lah. lol

but he didnt.. =) i tried to reset my phone. gosh, when i tried my simcard on my mum's phone, he didnt foorget bout me at alll. 5 text messages from him. ehheh. but, heh. my phone refused to load. so i was left staring at this.white.screen. heh. heartbreak**

but the dinner was great though. eheh, despite my dad setting me up.

sooo.. after being vain di dalam toilet hilton yang mesti diamalkan selalu... i went back into the hall and guess what. "now, calling for ms. RUBY CHAN to sing us a song."

tuuuut..... *glares at daddy* lol. he smiled away gayishly. sheesh. lol

...today was ordinary.. went over to sha's to do a lil catching up.. my birtday celebration was also ordinary.. not-so-sweet sixteen i guess..

oh well.

deep breathsss

2008-11-24T05:52:00.000-08:00

i AM SO FREAKED OUT.

the girl on the left, think its me? THINK AGAIN.

.......i found my identical twin....well, almost.. O.O

i didnt believe nimai at first, but when i viewed her fs myself... i nearly fell off my chair.. again, i AM SO FREAKED OUT. =/ okay, maybe i am exaggerating, but HEY. i didnt think i would find someone who looked like me THAT early in my life, i went through all her photos.. not all looks like me.. she's some sibu girl.. gosh. so freaky what photo angles can do to ur photo!

I AM SO FREAKED OUT.

j's studying, and i'm bothering him.. ahhh!!

hello againn

2008-11-18T03:53:00.000-08:00

i'm blogging again!!!!

ihope. =x

lol

9 DAYS TILL SPM IS OVERRR..
yerr.. macam la i sit for spm. eheh

12 days to me birthdayyyy...

37 days to christmas! =D.. wee..

...okay back to watching one tree hill now, eheh.

hello!

2008-07-04T06:56:00.000-07:00

yes i know i haven't been updating.. so tadaa..

my whole body aches. =(

why? sports day just ended. you do the math.. lol. ran 800m, did high jump and threw a stinkin cakera.. 800m... i didnt get last.. which is good.. high jump.. i got 4th..which isnt last, definitely good..and cakera..i got 3rd..DEFINITELY not last so DEFINITELY a good thing XD though i could do better.... darn. but thank you God that amethyst won. =)

well, i didnt really expect amethyst to win. but we did great this year.. heck, we rocked =).

and me, well.. i'm just dead tired right now.. just so tired of everything you get what i mean? yeah..sigh. and well.. i got so many homeworks piling up.. and i dont think i'm getting to them anytime soon...and thats what scares me most =/

i'm a procrastinator...thats what i do.. bleh. not saying its a bad thing thought =). i've got plenty to complain bout sports day this year too.. but i shal not because i am happy that we won. hee

ok. i'm done now =)

=?

2008-04-04T08:52:00.000-07:00

Random post.

Its hard to go on, in times like this. I’m hungry, I’m sleepy.. and I miss him but I cant do anything.. at least, I don’t want to..

My tummy hurts, my eyes hurt,

I WANT TO SLEEP

But I cant, because I’m still here.. and I cant because if I do I’ll wake up at 6 tomoro morning which isn’t a good thing, and because I don’t want to.

Oh, the irony.

LET ME SLEEP ALREADY

Sleep, funny word.. why do we need to sleep? Rested brain + rested body = good day? Then why do people who get enough sleep still get cranky anyway? Its nature. The painful truth is that we all need sleep because its fun. =.=

What the duck am I talking about.

WHEN CAN I SLEEP?!

When, how, why, who. All questions we see in our daily lives. We ask questions. We answer them. That’s how we learn. Many do not realize the importance of learning….

Ok now I just lost it.

I NEED SOME SLEEP

Funny, I’m typing non-stop although I am dead tired. Funny how to human brain works huh. No wonder they’re so many geniuses out there. Heck, I can be one right now.. only I don’t choose to…… many don’t see that! You can do whatever you set your mind to…

HOLY CRAP I’M SEEING FLYING PIGS.

and whats bout this forgive and forget crap? You forgive and you forget? Wtf? You know what’ll happen if Jesus forgave and forget? You’ll be forgotten! So heck, don’t forget. Just work on the forgiving part. And God’ll do the rest. Cause you’ll still remember.. only when you’ve truly forgiven.. when you reflect back, the pain isn’t there… and voila. Forgiven.

I NEED SOME SERIOUS HELP.

Self explosion. That’s what I’m having. I’m indirectly radiating out all my anger. From where? Whoah. I do not know. I’m so amazing..

I THINK I’M FEELING DIZZY

Help.
Sleep. Finally? Yay.

And oh, goodnight babe. I love you.

=)

2008-03-30T05:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

oh, and sharon too.. =)

so.. today's my baby's birthday.. we celebrated his birthday like, yesterday at hornbill restaurant..? is it a restaurant? lol. its a cool barbeque/steamboat place. awesome food.. but beware of flying butter.. lol. oh, and lucky us.. there was like a procession going on on the same road! saw like millions of lions..*exagerate much* ok fine maybe 20..lol. and many many people walking.. many many ah beng cars too.. i'll just post some pics.. let them speak for ya. i aint got much time to blog.. i still got my moral to do! sighhh.. enjoyyy..

food....

more food....

random silly-ness. i love it! lol

an over-excited birthday boy =))

tang tang tung changg

spectators.. haha!

extended family..

personal favorite pic =)

us - full and tired. lol

meet the parents. lol

me j and emm! smiley smilee..

psstt.. today also just happens to be our 9th month anniversary.. yay.. =D love you!

random.

2008-03-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

tuitions 5 days a week
school 5 days a week
rest ONE day a week
activities ONE day a week
homeworks 7 days a week!
studying..? HAHA.

does this picture look a little strange to you?

but yes, that's life as a student.. though some dont realise it, but yes, thats my life. it could be frustrating but its not... because i have..THIS

ah, my faithful companion.. some say pups are man's best friend, but in cases like me, not having one, SNIFF, i have my smexy 6300 and my smexy bf to text.. xD

soo..by now you might be wondering.. whats this girl punya purpose ha? wanna brag bout her phone and bf ha..?

lol. no. i'm just saying that i wont be blogging that often during the weekdays.. busy busy.. so people like mr jacky, dont change my link name anymore.. from Ruby who does not blog anymore, to Ruby who started blogging after three months, to who knows what after this.. ruby who's not blogging during the weekdays? lol. goodnight! got 13 questions of add math to do! =D =.=.

Good Friday

2008-03-21T06:03:00.001-07:00

today was.. avery vain day. =)

and so, i woke up to go to church. Sang awesome songs. normal good friday service.. after that, i decided to tag along with my friends who are also going for the Station of the Cross service after that around 12.. so on the way to guin's house.. this happened.

tsk..tsk...

and so.. we arrived at guin's place.. and this happened.....

hey, i was in the good friday mood okay.. xD

so we headed to lunch bla bla.. and this happened at some random supermarket in kuching...

if spotted, do not approach. hahaa..

and we went to church. it was a different experience for me cause i never attended it before in my whole entire life.. seriously. The station of the cross..its cool.. its when we get together, and walk around church.. on a "journey to Jerusalem". awesome experience. though it was a really really really hot day.. it was worth the whole thing. so i went home after that, and practically lazed around.. oh oh! did i mention all the works we had to do for this holidays?

Ruby's To Do list
1) MORAL (4 essays)
2)err....
3)oo..

ehh.. i just realised i dont have much to do after all!! haha..

my hair is SHORT.

2008-03-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

i wanna learn how to speak chinese.......

and no, it is NOT random. seriously la dude.. for a chinese to not know how to speak chinese fluently is so MENYUSAHKAN! i tell you malaysians these days, about 60% of them start speaking mandarin to me when they see me.. just cause i have a chinese face.. PFFTT..

a conversation between some random barber in kuching [A] and me [Ruby]
A : Ni yao..chien ni de tou fa chi yang? (dont mind my lousy pinyin, i know you guys understand la!)
Ruby : errr.. can speak english please?
A : oh oh.. how do you wanna cut your hair?
Ruby : ohh.. err.. just trim trim.. not so short arr.. a BITT onlyy
A : ohh.. k.. you want short or long hair?
Ruby : LONGGG!!!!

*A starts working his fingers through ruby's hair*
a few minutes later...

A : are you chinese?
Ruby : *duhh* yeahh..
A : ohh you go to lodge is it..? (i'm assuming he thinks i'm from lodge cause i speak good english hahaaaa xD)
Ruby ; hah? no.. batu lintang..
A : ohhh.. form 5 ha?
Ruby : no no! form 4! =.=

- common mistake .. sigh -

at the end of the day, my hair ended up SHORT. not long, SHORT. and sexy. hahaaa

that was my dayy.. =)

p/s, there were no pictures taken cause....*to be continued*

3 months later...

2008-03-19T06:39:00.000-07:00

HELLO..hello..helloooo

woo.. its been a while.. i just realised so many people blogs these days! so here's ruby.. giving into the peer pressure, and she blogs.. and also because she's bored! waiting for my one tree hill and kyle xy to finish downloading.. wa kao. gila so slow arr.. zzz.. anyways! how's form 4 been for me? keke..

1. STRESSSED xD
- well not exactly lar. just cause i procastinate alot so when my works pile up together and i rush to complete everything.. thats when the stress comes in.. well, tahts like the 4 cekap tradition liao leh.. during bm period today, i think like 60% of the whole class stood outside to finish works.. HAHA.

2. BORED / SLEEPY
- form 4 has its way of either bore-ing me.. or making me really really tired.. gila arr.. everyday go home have to sleep at least 2 hours.. i've transformed into something that sleeps even more than pigs.. when i figure out what, i'll let you know. lol

3. CREDITLESS
- no elaboration needed. xD

4. HEADACHES
- main causes : add math, chemistry, physics, bio.
dont get me wrong, i love stuff that make me think.. =D

5. LECTURES
- haiya.. every year also got de la.. ever year my class sure very ver bising de.. so no suprise there.. =D

6. FUN and LAUGHTERS
- i love my friends.. i love my new classmates.. though i do miss the ex 3G-ians from now and then.. but change is good sometimes.. a blesssing in disguise i must say! its amazing how used-to-be-friends can be complete strangers too.. i guess its times like this that we find out who our real friends are..

in conclusion, form 4 aint that bad.. (haha! in conclusion! lolol) we're older and wiser people......(YA RIGHT!) speaking of which.. reminds me of what yan said in class the other day..

Scene 1

Bryan : Bie bie! i love you!
Ruby : ohh yaaayy..? lol.
Bryan : ee.. if i say to you like that 2 years ago you'd go like, eeeeee...
Ruby : haiya.. older wiser ma... HAHA. i know you kidding de ba
Bryan : oh ya horr.. haiyah. no fun de you.. i say to beth and she's like, what?
Beth : *blurr face* haaa...?

ee.. so random. lol

so anyways.. i dont know how often i'll blog.. cause my life so boring de ba.. HAHA. holidays.. ooo.. holidays.. got moral project to complete! yayy.. =.=

byebye

2007-12-01T05:55:00.000-08:00

OMG.

i just realised i tend to use the word L-O-L (well, not exactly one word, it's actually three words laugh, out and loud which is now commonly used as LOL but anywayy) almost EVERYTIME after i say smth.. lol. see there i go again! so annoying... lol. =.=

laugh. heh

going off to australia tomorrow.. i doubt i can go online over there.. so to all you dudes and dudettes.. enjoy your hols! i'll miss you people.. especially one in particular.. take care baby.

hey i got tagged

2007-11-28T06:12:00.001-08:00

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:

1. A new handphone. lol
2. A new wallet
3. A new computer. or at least a bigger ram
4. Haagen Dazz ice cream
5. MONEY. lol

LIST OUT THE REASONS FOR YOUR CHOICES:

1. cause mine sucks
2. again cause mine sucks. lol
3. CAUSE MINE SUCKS> lol
4. cause i'm cravingg for it
5. cause i'm broke. lol

THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS: Reening

5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:

1. has good voice.
2. can play the guitar
3. stupid
4. sumtimes heartless
5. funny. i ran out of options! lol

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:

NONE. you're mean reening. lol

MOST LOVED INVENTION:

the computerrr.. lol

WHAT DO YOU DESPISE THE MOST:

exams. times near exams. during exams.. heck, anything to do with exams!!!

6 PERSONS YOU WANT TO TAG

1. Jason? lol
2. Bryan
3. Yvonne
4. Paul
5. Anyone who's reading this now
6. n/a i ran out of ppl .lol

8/11

2007-11-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

shall we dance..?

yes, i screwed up.. WE screwed up.. but we screwed up together! yay usss.. haha. i like the front part of the dance though.. i'm sho proud! =D it was kinda ok, considering we only had like one practise all together.. we got third for the overall competition btw.. if we didn't screw up, we could've done a hell lot better.. but oh wells, thats what you get for not practising! and yes, today was the last day of school for the year 2007. it was alright.. considering the hot weather.. i felt like a superstar today, signing people's yearbooks and stuff.. and yes, we still played our ever-popular uno cards.. (which eventually got confiscated) nick's fault!

yes, we lived and breathed uno cards for our last few days in school... lame huh but i have to admit, the last day of sch was pretty cool. goodbye to Jeremy, who's leaving for fluorida, and Audreen, leaving for Miri. all the best to the both and you.. we'll miss you both terribly and you'll both be in our memories forever and ever.. (gosh, i'm being mushy againn)

bwai bwai j.. we'll all miss you! =(

last day of sch, and he's still as horny as ever.. lol

i cant believe 2007 is almost ending! so many many many stuff happened this year, and i'm soo soo grateful for everything God has done for me! all i need now is 7a's.. 7a's.. pweetty pweeaseeee.. =/

goodbye smk batu lintang.. goodbye 3G-ians.. for the next two months.. i'll see you again on the 28th of december! =.=

blablablaa

2007-11-02T06:14:00.000-07:00

Tis’ the season to be jolly.. tralalalalalaaa.. ruby’s in the Christmas mood already..? =.= I knowww.. holidays are drawing near.. my birthday’s coming! Christmas is near! Ahh, don’t you just LOVE the holidays..? eheh. And well, though you won’t be in kuching for Christmas, I know you’ll have a great Christmas in KL babe.. I’ll miss you

So anyways, 28 more days till I’m 15! 30 more days to Australia! 37 more days till my sis gets married! (25+28) 53 more days to Christmas! Yayyy….. I can’t wait, can you..? right before you know it, CNY is here… time flies.. oh yes it does.. Gosh, I’m in Form 3.. I’m gonna be in FORM FOUR, my OLD and WRINKLY (kidding) sister is getting married, I’m gonna be a BRIDESMATE, I’m so madly in love with this amazing guy, I’ve improved my life in many different aspects, I’ve SURVIVED PMR, I survived every other thing that went on in my life.. the next thing I need is straight a’s for PMR and my year is completeee….. *fingers crossed*

The truth is, yes, I’m terrified.. there isn’t one day that I don’t think about my results.. its as if it haunts me in everything I do… and its somewhat annoying…. I just hope…pray.. that whatever the results may be, I’d survive that one too.. *fingers crosses harder* God? Help..? sniff.

*clears throat*

Dang, blogging is so not my thing.. I should go find smth else to do now.. bwaii..

Love you! Eheh. =)

pieces of me..

2007-10-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And By Wednesday I can’t sleep
Then the phone rings I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cause you’ve come to rescue me

Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts

Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody and messy
I get restless and it’s senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy, its your mission
And you won't stop till I'm there.

Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom crash
You’re all I have

Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know?
Everything I’m about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it’s written on my face
I hope it never goes away
Yea

On a Monday I am waiting
By Tuesday I am fading
Into your arms
So I can breathe

..

2007-10-29T08:17:00.003-07:00

no, my blog's NOT dead. lol

i love you. =)

..

2007-10-29T08:17:00.002-07:00

no, my blog's NOT dead. lol

i love you. =)

..

2007-10-29T08:17:00.001-07:00

no, my blog's NOT dead. lol

i love you. =)

..

2007-10-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

no, my blog's NOT dead. lol

i love you. =)

bleh

2007-08-22T19:01:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS

They suck. =/

Wake up every morning, with absolutely nothing to do, due to a very overprotective/demanding father, I sit and ponder on my bed, WHAT AM I TO DO FOR THE ENTIRE WEEK?! I did list down a few things to do, but heck, its as if I listen to myself anyways. Lol. It’s now THURSDAY. And I am ROTTING. So I might as well blog to keep me happy and my readers updated..

Monday 20/08
- watched 5 movies in a row
- indirectly spent 4 bucks on messaging people
- studied like ONE page of science. xD
- went for a concert (which was awesome btw)
- reached home at a quarter to 12
- dropped dead.

Tuesday 21/08
- watched another 4 movies in a row
- my computer was healthy again so I stayed on9 the whole afternoon
- went to tuition at night
- bad headache. Went to bed early

Wednesday 22/08
- watched 3 movies in a row
- stayed on9 the whole afternoon
- piano class at night
- came back on9
- dropped dead at 12

Today 23/08
- am on9
- having some friends over later for class project
- probably will study at night (lets just keep our fingers crossed on that one)
- or watch rush hour 3 with friends =)

Friday 24/08
- badminton tournament at Winner Court

Saturday 25/08
- continuation of badminton tournament
- tambourine at night. Yay!

Sunday 26/08
- church
- helping out the youth with some stuff
- celebrates for the holidays are over!

blah. i'm still bored and its only 10.20 am. gah i gotta look for smth to watch..

p/s. i'm sorry babe. its just that you've ben acting differently these days, thats why.. sigh

loveyou

ahh!

2007-08-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

i know i'm supposed to be studying now.. but hey, i got tagged.. and i'm sitting right in front of the computer, so i might as well..... =) tsk tsk. excuses...

10 things that I hate

Food I hate:
FOOD. hmm.. this is hard. but i'd say.. those very very bitter stuff.. like bitter gourd. and oh! BELACAN. and and.. tempoyak.. and.. timun.. and..*sticks cellophane tape to mouth*ok. next! lol

Fruit I hate:
Fruits.. nahh.. i dont hate any, i think.. fruits are good. =)

Veggies I hate:
i'd have to agree with soph on this. BITTER GOURD. like, just the sound of it makes my hair stand!

Celebrities/ People I hate:
hmm. i'd have to say RAymond LAM. reason? cause sophia's crazy over him. HAHA. joking la soph. *winks* urm.. i'd have to say.. none. dont hate, appreciate!

Event/ Situation/ Incident I hate:
this would definitely be exams. FUH. one can literally jump off a window with too much info stored in his/her simple mind. ahh!

TV shows/ Movie that I hate:
i'd have to say... hmm. teletubbies? what? i just think they're annoying. =.=

Music I hate :
really really heavy metal.it makes me dizzy.. no, not the can-be-healed-by-activfast-kinda dizzy, its more to the too-much-of-sejarah kinda dizzy.. ahh!

Household chores that I hate :
mopping. i just dont get it! its just, cacat.

Things that you hate around the world :
pervertism?? lol

Things that you hate about yourself :
my natural curls on my hair. my friendly beings on my face. lol. my extremely long legs, which btw is not a good thing, cause its hard to accessorise! blah

okay.. *skips away gay-ish-ly* back to my beloved history books..

i just thought you should know...

2007-07-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

that..

1. i love you. so much. note that the word "much" has no definite proportion cos it rapidly grows so, yeah. MUCH
2. you mean everything to me. everything. hmm.. does it need any furthre elaboration babe? everythinnggg..
3. you're the one i wanna spend my life with *awkward silence* forever babe
4. i wanna share everything in life with you
5. everything you are is everything to me
6. loving you is all i ever wanted to do..
7. i need you all the time. even when i say i dont
8. little things do matter to me. and again, even if i say they dont
9. heck, everything matters to me. =)
10. i'm missing you so badly right now. =(
11. i think about you everytime when you're not around..
12. even when you're around. you're still that voice inside my head
13. i'm still afraid of you. =S
14. i never ever wanna be without you ever again. (!!!!)
15. my heart is yours
16. i know everything you do.. hmm.. haha!
17. yes, i'm still stalking you.. *winks*
18. i'm crazy about you. =X
19. you're the only that can shoo those black clouds away from my life. =)
20. you should bear with me when i'm pissed/in a bad mood/etc
21. i need you especially during the times stated above
22. i never want this feeling to stop
23. did i mention i love you? yeah. i love you. =)

i'm just bored. ahh!.

sorry!

2007-07-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

yes, i know, i know... sorry for not updating for an extremely long timeee..

and yes, i'm sorry to my loyal readers especially

SOPHIA. NATASHA. PAUL. REENING?. (any more that i miss, please do let me know.)

ahh okay, let me go straight to my post today..

life for mua. it's been great lately. despite the fact that i just realised that PMR is like 2 and a half months away.. pfftt.. so intensed studying from now on i presume? more math, geo, sejarah, khb, english, bm and science for the next 2 months.. sigh

but but. there's so many interesting things coming up! such as Kids Games.. Planet shakers concert.. etc etc. there's more, but my brain simply cant think right now cos i'm really really sleepy. but i really feel like blogging. hee. oh fine. i guess i'll just have to compensate. but aint as hell am i gonna give away my phone.. =p

my studying is off schedule i guess. gotta kick it up a notch you noe. well, easier said than done. being a procrasinator and stuff.. but i'll try! dont worry. good luck to all those PMR students. study hard! make ur parents proud *coughs* lol.quoted from reening "i'm gonna beat you, and you and youuu.. all you people out there." lol

hugs and kisses everyone. might not be updating very soon due to.. yeah. =.=

p/s. i love you. hee.

i miss you. :S

2007-06-30T09:11:00.000-07:00

Bucket full of tears, baby know I'm here. I'm here waiting.
Just close your precious eyes and just realize i'm still fighting.

For you to be with me and sit under this tree and we can watch the sun rise.

We can watch the sunrise.

Wake up, feel the air that I'm breathing

I cant explain this feeling that I'm feeling -

I won't go another day without you <3

And hold on, I promise it gets brighter

When it rains, I'll hold you even tighter

I won't go another day without you.

Without you.

a thought

2007-06-21T00:50:00.001-07:00

"You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."
(quoted from One Tree Hill EPISODE #403)

i've got no good left in me now

2007-06-20T22:47:00.000-07:00

SENSES FAIL LYRICS

"Calling All Cars"

Calling all cars we've got another victim
'Cause my love has become an affliction
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

I'm sorry but I think I failed to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing
And I know how it's going to end

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

Oh my dear, what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

Without giving away the entire ending
I ruined the evening again

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

I don't have love left inside, inside
And I don't have love left inside, inside
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now
That's why I walked out

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You hate me for it now
Try to forget me and just move on

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
And do your best to forget my name

the sun's getting cold...

2007-06-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

i feel great.... the fact that the choir won the inter-school competition today feels so good... but....

sigh

i guess good things doesnt last forever ey? might not even be in the team anymore next year.. my dad thinks that choir is too much of a sacrifice.. and.. and.. sigh. it hurts to even talk about it..

"after this year, its over. no more choir for you"

wtf!

when i found the one thing that i'm good at.. and i actually really REALLY love it.. he just has to take it all away.. just like he did to swimming.. tennis.. taekwondo.. etc etc.. it just sucks sumtimes u noe.. having an overprotective dad and all. sheesh!

the one day that i felt so good about myself.. just went down the drain. now how sucky is that? plus. i have my piano examinations tomoro.. so wish me luck. i'm gonna finish off some work, and head off to bed early. and did i mention i STILL have to go back to school after my exam tomoro? thanks alot dad! sigh.

still lonely and frustrated..

=)

2007-06-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

i love you.
shh. =)

roarrr!!!

2007-06-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

whoah. blogger.com just made me realised smth

this is my 50th post. o.O

okay fine, its nth much to be oo-ed about, but hey, i wasnt much of a blogger person to begin with.. and to think that msot of my posts are either boring or jiwang. hmm.. lets face it, i aint no natural born blogger BUT i made it to the 50th post so yay me? xD

and so i've been thinking. and i made a conclusion that this holidays has begun to mold me into a very very emo person. there you go, i said it.. =.= i've also FORGOTTEN how to do algerabra btw. it sucks laa.. and what have i been doing this holidays so far? lets take a look shall wee..?

1. BLEACH.

its very addictive okay! in the end of each episode when it says "TO Be Continued", it always, and i mean ALWAYS make me wanna watch more. in fact i'm already at episode 81! i'm suppose to go on with episode 82 right now, but i learnt how to control my serious addiction and i started to blog before i get bored and start watching again.. sigh. its okayy.. watching anime is healthy.. i.. think. wait, is it? omg. help. =X

2. SINGING

yes yes.. everyone knows the choir is working really hard to perfect our songs.. and today's practise was especially tiring. but its okay.. i believe it'll all pay off.. so this holidays i've practically been singing my heart out, dsepite the fact that i'm losing my voice, but its okayyy.. practise makes perfect, and we still aint perfect!... YET.

3. PIANO-PRACTISING

20th June. Piano Practical Exam. any further elaborations needed? xD

4. SLEEPING.

ahhh yes.. hibernation season. well honestly? i havent been sleeping that much.. less that what i've expected.. cause i've been sleeping at about 12 every night.. and wake up about 8 the next morning. (or earlier) and thats like.. less than 10 hours of sleep! sigh. what can poor ruby do.. her pigginess cannot "menyerlah" throughout this holidays. sniff

5. DANCING

yeah.. i dance. i cant live without dancing. i can say that dancing has already become a part of me.. its a way i worship the Lord.. its a way i get rid of my sorrows and express my joy too.. its just another blessing that God has given.. and i believe that when HE puts it to it, HE'll put you through it too.. this is just one of His ways.. and i'm truly grateful for this.

6. TRYING to study

i AM aware of PMR being very very close.. and i am aware of my responsibilities as a student.. so i'm trying my best to study.. sigh. all i can say is i tried!

7. ONLINING (dont kill me for using such english, please. xD)

its practically a daily routine. no suprise there.

blarrhh

2007-05-31T08:46:00.000-07:00

i hate youtube for being such a a$$ sumtimes. sigh. it was going so well until... until.. episode 65. =.=

whats the date today? 31st May 2007. omg i still haven finished my sejarah project.. daymm.. so anyway

how'd my day go today? pretty good i guess. got up at about 9.30 am. thanks to a certain some1 who kept messaging my phone and eventually woke me up.. =.= i started working on my second piano piece today. the tempo's all wacked la.. i got so friggin pissed.. and to think that i have a performance this monday.. sigh

when my mom got home, which was about 2? yeah. we got ready and stuff, and we went shopppinnnnggggg.... for what? for.... karaoke cd's. swt la. we got home at about 5.30 pm and my mum, my sis and I(later joined by my dad at about 8?) went on a singing marathon from 5.30pm till 9.45 pm!(thats about 4 HOURS!)*wondering whether my neighbours are pissed off or not. =p*

and then i went on my bleach marathon, which is now distrupted due to youtube being a complete a$$. sigh. tomoro's a new day! 6 minutes to gawai? haha. cant wait till sunday. cant wait till monday.. cant wait till wednesday. so much to look forward to la! though my heart's feeling very very heavy.. sigh.

everything's feeling so... i dont know how do i explaint it, but its like that. everything feel's so empty.. hmm. okay. i'm done now.

gah!

2007-05-30T06:32:00.000-07:00

i'm bored. =(

i miss my phone. =((

i suck at cam-whoring.. =(((

i hate msging ppl i dont like to msg.. =((((

what did i do today?

i woke up at 0630 hours. (i noe.. OMG.) just to find out that my mum was hogging the beautiful*coughs*bathroom.. unlike some of you fortunate peeps out there, i have to actually wait for my turn to take a shower in the morning.. my mum tends to take FOREVER. so anyway, it was my turn at about.. 0650 hours.. =.= so during that 20 mins, i went back to sleep! yay me! xD

rushed like hell, cause i thought i was gonna be late for choir.. cause the traffic in the morning is crazzyyy.. plus we had to send my momma to work 1st.. but it appears that it was kinda okay.. so i was early for choir anyway.

we sang our hearts out! (okay a lil' exaggeration, but its okay.. xD) we're improving! sigh.. sopranos! we have to work hard! get our "oooo's" and "aahhh's" right! 21 more days people! Pn Luk couldnt join us today.. she was busy.. but Jeremy took over when Ryner left anyway.. oh RIGHT. i have smth very very VERY disturbing to share.. i shall remain this bitch's identity, XXX.

XXX stepped into our beloved bilik kuliah, with her oh-so-beautiful smile.. its scary too in a way.. I was being polite, so yeah, i greeted her like i always do.. with my sweet smile and ...... (LOL. okok. i'll stop) so she was observing us choir members. and i know we havent perfected our parts yet, but PLEASE LA. (ruby trys to control her mouth by sticking a big piece of cellophane tape) would you puh leez just SHUT UP?

forgive me for being slightly rude here, and i noeee her words were suppose to help to build us up.. but what the tut la..

"you listen ha.. when you guys get together like this for a practise, you have to make sure you ive in 100% of your commitment into the practise. be serious. not like RUBY who answers her phone in the middle of the practise."

WTF.

it was a very important call okay! she pissed me off right there and then. okay. i thought maybe.. just MAYBE she would at LEAST refer to us generally ka.. but NO. she just HAD to say my name.. wtf la.. i lost my respect for you! you're lucky i'm not even CURSING you. i'm a christian. but clearly you have tested my patience. so. I'm sorry God.

enough of that. after choir, my dad came 20 mins late, and i was starvvvinnnggg already. so by the time i got home, i ate like a ..... (too gruesome to describe) and there.. i've forgotten all about XXX. thank GOD i dont see her everyday anymore.. then i went on9 for a couple of hours, and slept in until 5.30 pm. thanks to Paul (who woke me up with his nudge) it was a very productive 4-hour nap. cause A, i calmed down about the whole XXX thing and B, it made up for all the sleep i lost last nite! yay

that was practically how my day went. tips on how to kill boredom in ur everyday life? go to www.reeninglau.blogspot.com. go on.. you know u want to. xD

not emo not emo~

2007-05-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

four tres two uno! o.O blogging time~

22 days to go.. We're getting there......meli, i miss you so much..(wait... rewind and freeze.!)

22 days to go.. We're getting there......

yeah. xD 22 more days to go to the choir competition.. wargghh.. hopefully it doesnt clash with my frikin piano exam! scares the living sh*t outta me.. i worked so hard for both, and knowing that i can only go for either one, SUCKS. i wanna sing AND play. its kinda like choosing between kebudayaan and choir last time.. sigh, i never did get the chance to dance.. but oh well.. decisions decisions..

Holidays. How've they been so far? okay i guess.. havent really done that much, considering that the hols has just begun.. but i HAVE been pretty busy lately, and i STILL have my projects to finish.. sigh. its okay.. tomoro's another day.. speaking of tomoro, pn Luk's joining us for choir practise! yay! she has an ammmaazzzziinnnggg voice.. her technique and everything. wow. her voice projection and all.. o.O

i just realised i havent really hung out yet.. today my mission was to finish watching BLEACH until episode 60.. and i made it! WOW. i hate the fact that Aizen Taicho is frikin evil.. sigh.. why cant he be that sweet loving guy Hinamori admires? sniff.. heartbroken larr!! speaking of heartbreakin', KIDDO!! warrgghh.. he didnt change the slightest BIT! he still sings like an angel, and he looks as HAWT as ever! =p (for those of you who are wonderin who the heckie is kiddo, he's this singer from Gen Rev from the Philipines. hawtness. =p)

what else.. hmm.. oh, i'm painting my nails black. (ish. so random)

okay. i'm done blogging now.. gotta go pain my nails! p/s i AM NOT emo. =p

....... sigh

2007-05-27T21:47:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

nth lasts forever - maroon 5

2007-05-26T03:20:00.000-07:00

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
I just don't know If you don't know
Then you can't care And I show up
But you're not there But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes T
he ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart

Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It will fall down while I'm asleep If you don't know
Then you can't care

And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

wargh

2007-05-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

boredom kills..

holidays are here.....FINALLY.

Youth Outing to Siar Beach...
Choir practises..
Piano practises..
Piano Performances..
Concert practises..
Langkawi Trip..
Geografi project
Sejarah Project
Piano Exam
Mok PMR Exams
PMR Examination

roar.

laughs.. i guess i was wrong

2007-05-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

"What Goes Around... / ...Comes Around Interlude"
Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
[laughs]

See?You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahBecause(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

is this worth it.....

2007-05-09T06:22:00.001-07:00

it's..... unfair..

life's unfair..

why am i the one who has to get hurt?

why is it always me..

just for once.. i thought maybe..

but no...... i end up being the one who gets left behind again

the one who has to give in..

knowing that i have given so much of myself...

i'm always the one who makes the mistakes

why ME?

sigh... its okay now...

everything's okay.....

he's happy.. and i shouldnt ruin that for him..

and she's happy.. i dont wanna hurt her...

but i'm unhappy... and i'm hurting myself...

mmhmm.. fcuk it all.

you're already the voice inside my head... miss you, miss you...

2007-05-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

"Innocence"

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now.........
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere.............
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

* a wonderful song... dedicated to... well, you.. hmm..

grrrrrr....

2007-04-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

is it possible for one to be excited and really frustrated at the same time? hmm..

its funny how procrasinating is.. and when you put it all to the last minute, you get really frustrated.. but the fact that you got smth else to look forward to, now thats a different story.. ^^

I'm talking about my effing History PROJECT. its due end of THIS MONTH, and yet, i'm only halfway through.. sigh. this is badd.. but, hmm.. its okay i guess. i'll look for sum other time to do it again.. *there you go, wuby's procrasinating again!*

so anyways, my exams are coming up REAL SOON, and i barely studied. sigh. okay okay! i'm getting started.. well, there's this Bible Camp coming up, and i'm sooooo excited! we get to see orang utan's! WEEEE!!! lol. did i mention i'm going to Langkawi this coming holidays too? weeehoooo~~

enough of that.. lets just remind myself that my piano exam is less than two months away, PMR is less than SIX MONTHS AWAY, and the First Term Examinations are like two weeks away! *gulp* and yeah, the choir competition's coming soon too! omg omg omg!

BUT. IF i dont procrasinate and stay focus, i SHOULD have no problem. but the thing is, HOW will i do that? =s

word of the day - procrasination. =)

one last time...

2007-04-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

somebody, anybody... help? sniff...

"this emptiness is killing me, i'm wondering why i'm waiting soo long......"

"i'm waiting here, been waiting here...".

"thought you should know, i tried my best to let go of you.."

"i shouldnt love you.."

"i just cant turn away....."

"i dont know how to be fine when i'm not..."

"i dont know how to make this feeling stop.."

"its getting hard to be around you, there's so much i cant say. //"

"looking back i realise

it was always there, just never spoken.."

just so you know....... sigh.

finally! ^^

2007-04-23T23:51:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i never knew i had such interested readers.. =p

so yeah, i know its been a while since i last blogged, but hey.. could you blame me? i mean like.. school is HECTIC. and i'm farr tooo busy being a pig. and plus, my comp sucks. so it takes like extra long to log into friendster, apatah lagi blogger.com! LOL.

1. How's Ruby been lately?
hmm.. i've been pretty okay lately.. trying to cope with studies.. trying to balance my crazy schedule..

2. WHAT? Why are you SO busy?
well, exams are coming up.. projects just came in.. and i got involved in the choir too recently, and they stress alot on discipline and attendance, not to mention commitment and determination. so yeah, choir is like my main priority in school right now, besides the education of course

3. ohhh.. okay then. anything interesting lately?
yesss.. in fact i have to much to blog about. my school organised this Badminton Competition held in Winners' Court last Saturday. which lasted for a body-challenging 9 hours! or so.. but i played for only ONE category which is the Mixed-Doubles with my faithful partner, Jassie *cough* Jason John. and we made to the finals! yay us! we might be playing this coming Thursdays and we will be competing with Horng Ruey and his parner Florence. *taking this oppourtunity to promote my partner* Jason is also playing in the finals for his Doubles, and fighting for 3rd place in the Singles category. credits to Jason! ^^

4. You said smth about the choir?
yes i did, infact, we performed in the Majlis Kecemerlangan thingy last Saturday.. our tempo was a lil' too fast, but yeah, we ROCKED! =p we're going for a competition this June, so wish us luck!

5. Anything else??? yawnnnn..
of course.. lets see.. GENREV is BACK! waaa.. KIDDO!!! ^^ and so is the semester exams.. sniff.. and i barely studied.. sighs. and oh, did i mention that i might be flying off to Langkawi this June? yayyyyy.... holidaayyy~~ ^^

aite.. i feel awkward talking to myself right now. are you happy now, Sophia? my faithful reader.. =p .

why dont you kiss herr..

2007-03-30T07:18:00.001-07:00

sigh.. i'm feeling so darn low right now.. though i'm not really showing it.. it's always like that.. its either i'm hiding it, or i've forgotten about it.. i guess i can say that i'm carefree.. but, one thing's for sure.. my heart's sooooo fragile. =X

i've been thinking about him ALOT these days.. and i really dont know why.. and i've been listening to this song ALOT too.. the melody's so sad.. so.... hmm.. i dont know.. i've never really gotten to know him, and i'm thinking this much about him.. maybe Nimai's right.. but, i gues.. i'll just stick.with.u. i've never intended for me to fall like this deep him.. it just hurts at times you know.. i guess i'll never figure out what this is.. it'll remain.... that way

this song.. is dedicated to you.. i know you probably aint reading this, but i just wanted to know that there is smth inside me that is longing to come out.. just reaching out to you.. calling out only your name.. only yours.......

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
Ohhh...
Lately something's changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

[Chorus]
Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let HIM see the feelings that you hide
He'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

Oh, I'm so afraid
To make the first move
Just a touch and we could cross the line
And everytime he's near
I wanna never let him go
Confess to him what my heart knows,
hold him close

[Chorus]

What would he say
I wonder would he just turn away
or would he promise me
that he's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

[Chorus]
Why Don't you kiss her
(tell her you love her)
Why Don't You tell her
(tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The Feelings that you hide
Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

* the words in bold are not the original lyrics, but yeah.. u get my point.

missing euu

2007-03-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

i thought of you today. and that made me miss you so much

though i couldnt be with you today, please keep shining on.. shoo the dark clouds away~ awww.. i sound like a mummy..

tomorrow's a new day.. suatu hari yang pasti akan mengubati kerinduanku ini.. i hope.. =S

i dropped a tear in the ocean, the day you find that tear, is the day i will stop missing you. xoxo.

RuBy..

hmm..

2007-03-16T08:20:00.000-07:00

我可以寄没有地址的信

ji mei you di zhi de xin

Sent a letter with no one in mind

这样的情绪有种距离

zhe yang de qing xu you zhong ju li

This feeling is so distant

你放着谁的歌曲

ni fang zhe shui de ge qu

Whose song are you listening to now?

是怎样的心情

shi zhen yang de xin qing

What emotions within you are being stirred?

能不能说给我听

neng bu neng shuo gei wo ting

Can you tell me?

雨下得好安静

yu xia de hao an jing

The rain is so silent

是不是你偷偷在哭泣

shi bu shi ni tou tou zai ku qi

Is it you crying silently?

幸福真的不容易

xing fu zhen de bu rong yi

Happiness is not easy to come by

在你的背景有我爱你

zai ni de bei ying you wo ai ni

I’m loving you from your shadows

我可以陪你去看星星

wo ke yi pei ni qu kan xing xing

I can accompany you to see the stars

不用再多说明

bu yong zai shuo ming

Nothing much needs to be said

我就要和你在一起

wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi

I just want to be with you

我不想又再一次和你分离

wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li

I don’t want to ever leave you again

我多么想每一次的美丽

wo duo me xiang mei yi ci de mei li

The beauty I see everytime,

是因为你

shi ying wei ni

It’s all because of you

幸福它真的不容易

xing fu ta zhen de bu rong yi

Happiness, it’s really not easy

a sudden urge to blog

2007-03-15T19:08:00.000-07:00

i havent been blogging in a while now.. hmm.. feeling guilty again! hehe

so anyways, am having a sudden urge to blog.. dont know why.. its like, everytime i hear the "i Dont Wanna Fall In Love" song, its like saying, "RUBY! BLOG!" lol.. funny eh..

so hey, the one week holidays are ending, and soon i have to back to school.. *sobs* owh wells, at least i did smth with my hols this time.. not just laze around at home, rottin in boredom. and oh, did i mention that i'm in the choir club? lol..

hmm.. i'm feeling really emo right now, no idea why, who, or what.. not realizing that this feeling has been here all this time.. sigh. i had one of those dreams again last night.. it was kinda like that Just So You Know video by Jesse McCartney.. just featuring me and him. sighs. i don't know whether to feel great about it or not.. its just so wrong.. but what Charri said last night made me feel so great.. but, was he? sigh.

i guess, God has His reasons, and i'm not worthy to even question that.. but, at times i just do wonder.. what'll happen.. i guess, its yesterday's news now.. move along~ God has better things planned out for me, i do believe in that. just gotta hold on to whatever i have now, and go through life, as it is.. i am lucky, and so are you.. you just need to realise that. take care.. of yourself and yeah, u noe who.

maybe..

2007-03-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

Didn't you want to hear the sound
of all the places we could go
Do you fear the expressions
on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road
when you wake up and I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe t
hat everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face makes me wish that
I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song,
to you and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it better
than it ever was x2

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
( I want it all, Don't leave right now)
(I'll give you everything)

jiwangness..NOT! lol

2007-03-07T00:18:00.000-08:00

when i told u i love u,
please noe that its true,
cos i've never been more certain,
that each that it has always been you,
the one that i've been longing to see,
the one i've been longing to touch,
but baby, would you love me?
the way that i love you so much?

the time we spent,
would all remain a memory
for when i first held your hand,
that moment was just you and me,
it opened a door for me,
that led to a light ever so bright,
for i have been blind to not see,
that it has been you, cheering my darkest nights

i couldnt part from you,
and hope you noe its true,
so please remind your square friend,
to not seperate us two..
but when its time for me to let go,
i just really really hope you noe,
it wasnt cause i dint love you,
its just cause i wasnt allowed to..

PMR is coming,
it scares me everyday,
but when i thought of you,
my troubles fled away..
but it hurts that we would be seperated
for 2 to 3 months or so,
but do believe it wasnt my doing,
i'll never want to do so..

so when i'm gone,
be very strong and move on,
i might see you from time to time,
but you must go ur way, and i'll go mine.
tell that little friend of yours,
that it doesnt need to suffer no more,
for i will be gone,
walking out that same brown door.

be strong, my computer.. you'll always be in my heart.

(a story of a very lame girl who loves her computer. cheers! ^^)

p/s: the little fren refers to the modem. heee

uncontrolable tears, controlled. hmm..

2007-03-04T21:54:00.000-08:00

staring at those beautiful stars
that once brought such a deep meaning
felt as if it was as though
i could feel it once more..
but it's gradually fading away..
as you showed me what my heart already knew..

i've tried so badly..
i've failed countless times..
but i got right up and tried once more
yet, once again..
i stumble and fall..
i fell so hard that i nearly broke down and cried..
but even at my worst, you were there..
i never saw such a thing..
a love that was here to stay..

"You could've had everything..
everything you could possibly want.."
but would i be satisfied with EVERYTHING?
still asking the same questions..
still searching for the right answers..
but everything just isnt falling into the right place..
it isnt..

but i've found a way to leave things behind..
found a way to walk away..
and by God grace, i'm still here today
living entirely for Him..
and doings works for him..

speaking of works, i've got homework!
AND i have to study!! arrgghh!! hee..